Things Change

When you’re up its sad to see who may try pulling you down & try turn your smile into a frown . . .
Sometimes it’s those close, the ones you feel love you most

Things change, its odd , its strange, life can re – arrange , re – write your page, let go of rage, step up, step on stage, you got through that phase, the past we cant erase, but the future the present we can change

I am living just for today, yesterday is gone, today I am okay

For those less fortunate I do pray, I hope they’ll be granted a better day

Sometimes I have so much to say, trying to inspire by speaking of my yesterday

In my mind I re-wind re-live those scary places, feelings & images I may find

I overcame this before, but forever in my memory I can’t help but store
So instead I go back and choose to re- store, go back and fight once more

Don’t be mistaken, after I am a little shook, left & right hook, the pain I took, but I am still standing. . . look !!

Then I stand strong, express all that iv done wrong, in detail explain the places where my mind has gone..

A place of madness, a place of insanity, a place of fear & sadness
Not so many are able to say they have had this
Not so many come back from this place, their mind loses oxygen, its to late they remain in space. .
Alien forever, I guess I am Alien too, I just found a way to come back to earth back to you
A survivor, maybe now of that place I’m a wisdom provider
Maybe now I am meant to inspire, save those burning in fire
This is my desire, to lift souls higher
To perhaps re-wire, perhaps reconnect a disconnected wire

I am living just for today, yesterday is gone, today I am okay

I do not care for judgement, or of what some may say
Hurtful words quickly drift and float away

I believe in who I am, I believe in what I am, I believe I can, I know who I am
This is why I stand . . .

Never again in my pride will I hide who I truly am inside
I refuse to doubt, this is me and all I am about
Once locked up inside, now I choose to let it out

Things change, its odd , its strange, life can re – arrange , re – write your page, let go of rage, step up, step on stage, you got through that phase, the past we cant erase, but the future the present we can change

Inspiration - That guy with a story

I never thought I could ever be seen as a good example
A form of motivation, that my words, my story could form inspiration

I started writing; this was my form of verbally fighting the deadly lightning
Words became enlightening
Rhyme after rhyme, these words they became mine, lyric after lyric rap after rap, it became a alphabetical attack

Setting these words, these letters free, these crazy rhymes stored in me , this is my life story

Hard to expose, what God only knows

Emotional blows, but he still stands, he shows

The Lord is my saviour, my light, my salvation..

Whom shall I fear, what shall I fear, when Jesus Christ is my motivation, my inspiration

Only God can really judge me, an though I walk through thy valley, thy shadow of darkness, evil and death I fear no evil, I expose it all, not just the sequel

God is with me

Did God anoint me?
I know God will never dissapoint me
Did God anoint me?
After Lucifer tried to destroy me

You see I am that guy that’s not so easy on the eye
A scar under my left eye
40 stitches, but I am not the kind who bitches
You see I like my scar
It now makes me unique
if I could go back I might just turn the other cheek

Scar face Don is signing a song
It won’t be long
Times up
There he goes, his gone
So long

Don The Art
This is my form of art
And is only the start
You see I that guy that’s not so easy on the eye
Iv got scripture in my veins
Three different names
I walked through the fire, the flames
Now I desire to inspire
Lift hells souls heavenly higher
Forgiveness will be granted
When his spirit in your soul is implanted
Script all over me
Telling me my own story
Become one
Fear none
Forever young

D.O.C

Setting a story free
My way of saying thank you for saving me
Fulfilling my given destiny

I am that guy that is not so easy on the eye
Don’t judge I surprise
There’s more to what meets ones eyes

Beyond my disguise
Within my remorseful tearful eyes
A story lies

Spiritually I was awoken
So these words could be spoken
An Angel told me I am a messenger
A wisdom sender
Triple 3
Numerology
You can Google me

In my Dreams I have seen places Angels have been
In 2007 I fell from heaven
I then entered a deadly 11

Another me
Another form of reality
I was sober, yet I was high
In this reality there was no form of gravity

All I felt was fear
Evil whispers in my ear
He says, come over here
Come close, come near

For four months I was here
A dance with the devil forever was near
But I said never
Angels came an put the broken pieces in my mind back together

For a little while I kept it steady
But for my destiny I was not yet ready

Vulnerable and weak
One more I started to tweak
2010
Goodbye, once more I am sober, but high
2 Months later, once more I find reality
I find gravity
2011
Would be the last 2007
Time for me to fly back up to heaven
2012 December 22nd
The end, Goodbye to my dear friend
It’s the beginning not the end
Try comprehend
That in my heart ill forever have this friend

Sane to insane, to sane to insane

Memories, images forever
But I keep it together
No matter the weather



Psalms 23

God started calling me

Dreams became real
I started to heal
I started to feel
More and more real

My snake skin started to peal
I came back a different me
A better me
I answered my calling

I am not perfect born sinner
Yet a born winner

Im that guy that’s not easy on the eye
The guy that’s been sober
After been high

A bag full of baggage
A bag full of debt
Yet a bag with zero regret
I’m happy I will never forget

I am that guy

For my Beautiful Darling Caleche

What happens when the tears fade away, an all I have left is memories , memories of the evil words I now wish I didn’t speak, didn’t say

I cannot change the mistakes I made yesterday, God can’t forgive me every time I pray and say sorry for the same sins I may commit again today

What happened, what did I do? What have I done, is that what I can become, I say fear none, but from myself I want to run
Don is this you’re forever Young
These after affects are not fun, there’s no sun, so happy I never bought that gun


What happens when the tears fade away, will I be okay, if you left me, chose to go away, im scared to ever face that day

I am no saint; goodness in me at times can be invisible, at best faint
So ill say it again, I am not great, I believe in fait, but relate when they say your choices today determine your destiny tomorrow , maybe life is an existence we borrow, excuse my hollow form of guilt shame an sorrow, without love I am hollow, empty alone multiplied by ten thousand and twenty

A unknown figure, I don’t have a gun, but a crazy mental trigger, I SNAP, an I can never take back the things I do or say when im like that, so I guess when the tears fade away ill be left with today

But today, everyday , just for today, ill make up for yesterday, the tears faded away, she didn’t leave me today, instead she came , saw my feelings of guilt, shame, once more I promised this would never happen again.
This would be the last, what we have will never become the past.

In her eyes I see life, I see future, I see my wife
Love like this iv never felt, the best love story could not explain , the feelings she makes me feel again and again, and maybe at times we drive each other insane, but love is not like a game, love that is real, love that can heal, can also reveal insecurities we feel, as in the one we love most we choose to confide, our flaws we cannot hide

So for her I decide to let go of my pride and no longer hide the pain that’s inside
Its hard for me to pretend that I comprehend why to her the one I love most such words I chose to send, she is my lover , my very best friend, without her, the only two words ill have left are THE END.

I didn’t mean to hurt you beautiful, I didn’t mean to make you cry, I wish that I knew why, but today & tomorrow, forever I will try, to be the very best guy, and never again make you cry, I know its hard for you to ever forget, but trust me when I say the words I spoke I do regret, I love you forever this to I hope you will never forget.

So when the tears fade away, I hope you’ll believe me when I say, I am sorry my GORGEOUS Caleche, I could never mean any of those things I said, if I did God has the right to strike me dead

The following though I really mean..

A beauty like yours iv never seen, all my life where have you been
My respect for you is so great, your more than pure, you’re my serenity, to my lonely broken heart your love became the cure, id never expose all these feelings if I wasn’t sure

The angel of purity, the angel of love possessing the security to insecurity, the angel to my every weakness, within you I have found strength you better believe this
You lift me higher than iv ever been, you show me places I have never seen

Happier I could never be, than when you’re right here with me, my angel my destiny
Come and fly with me, let’s find that place we meant to be, lets fly beautiful angel, you & me...

 

Time to turn, & Fight !!!

My name is Don THEART

Words are one of my many forms of art
These are the emotions I release from my heart, not thinking twice as I start
In your life somehow, someway, one day I hope they will play a positive part

I speak constantly of how the past demons may taunt me, how what happened yesterday comes back to haunt me

Well I have chosen to turn and fight, enter that place consisting of darkness and no light

I cannot keep running like a wanted criminal, time for me to be subliminal
Time for me to ignite the darkness and be the light, give evil sight, and show them what it means to do what is right, I choose to turn and fight.

Evil envious laughs, its alright, it wont change that iv chosen to stand up and fight

I need no followers, reverse psychology, subliminal me, Settting this free, D.O.C

Jesus Christ had only 12 disciples

This is me, and who I choose to be, this is me Gods given destiny, I AM FREE

Free from evils misery, open your eyes and see, these words are for more than me
Greater than I , are you living a lie?
Have you asked yourself why?
When looking in the mirror have you seen evil in your eye
Have you made the ones you love most cry?

Can I tell you why ?

There are angels above in the sky , there’s angels below trying to teach us how to fly

Then there are demons, that make us cry, that feed us a evil lie to why you meant to make the ones you love cry

I say let them try, then smile, its time we turn the other cheek

Do not mistake the words I speak, their own words are what one day they will eat

You have greatness to meet
Take their weakness an show them what makes a D.O.C what makes Gods Angels so unique
I can relate, when you ask , at what stage should we retaliate ?

But that is just it , they want you to retaliate, they want to bring you down to their evil state, but instead retaliate by turning the other cheek, this is what makes A D.O.C GOD’S ANGELS UNIQUE



I CHOOSE TO FIGHT EVIL WITH GOODNESS
I TURN , I FIGHT, BUT I DO IT RIGHT

I TURN THE DARK TO LIGHT
THE EVIL BLINDED FIND SIGHT

I BECOME THEIR LIGHT IN THE NIGHT
GOODNESS I TRY INSPIRE,..IGNITE

Metamorphisis

God told me I wouldn’t be here for long
He told me I better hurry up, finish this song
Walk the path, find the place I belong
Change, do right, no more wrong, soon you’ll be gone

Fix every mistake, You are cleansed an Angel 88

When I leave know that you’ll never be alone
Ill be living in your memory, today im fulfilling my destiny

Running out of time, reaching the end of my life line
Life 9, a heart beat so faint so fine

A heart beat so weak, yet a heart so strong , deciding to fix all that’s wrong

A metamorphosis

As the Caterpillar starts to cocoon, he appreciates the vision of what he believes will be his last moon
Little does he know he will be returning soon

He will return & be able to fly
He will come back a beautiful butterfly

The Angel of the insect world, he would soar , fly high , pretty butterfly, a new life, a new high
Flying with the birds in the sky

But his wings cant be touched, a weakness, maybe a illness, for if they touched, he will lose flight, he will become a fallen Angel, a insect once more, and there he will die an Angel a insect with broken wings

I got given a second chance, to give this life one last dance
I entered a psychotic trance , I entered a world of drugs, crime an corruption at age 13, Don for 8 years left the scene, became a insect, a reject, a defect, a regret.

Lost myself, damaged my health.

Maybe I waited to long, God speaks of punishment for what we’ve done wrong

So he told me fix what you’ve done wrong, soon you’ll be gone

Finish this song , express your art, remember you surname , you are Don The Art

So time to Don The Art, lead the art, like a butterfly , here’s a second chance a fresh start, but all you’ve got is this final dance, and after that perhaps you’ll enter a heavenly trance

Named a leader, Spirit of a believer, a giver, less of a receiver, the quarter back, throw it back, have them celebrate that, walk away with no more than a pat on the back, give thanks for that.
A fallen angel, the angel of death, soon to collect his debt, your final breathe

These are the cards you’ve been dealt, like a candle your wax is starting to melt, the faintest flame, this is for your guilt , your shame, but you’ll leave behind your flame, you will leave behind a example,life within your name

The world of those that know you , will never be the same

Lucifer & God entering my dreams again & again, my mental brain has taken strain, but God comes to my aim, again & an again

He says

Don you doing well, but close in your rear view is a burning smell, the smell of hell
The past demons still taunt you, they still haunt you, they want to stop you, slow you down, drag you 6 foot underground

You wont be here for long, there’s a place above you belong , finish your song, keep doing right do no wrong, hurry , it wont be long , stay strong, soon you’ll be gone

No time to wait, Angel 88, this is your fait

Emotions of mine, one more time , Life9

Time to respond, to a distant yet another spiritual bond

You can use it, or lose it, glad you don’t abuse it

You never know whose watching till you observe, i see the words you serve
And now I know, I see it in your art, spoken from the start, written through sympathy touched your heart, I dig it though, love the flow, let me tell you

I am Don THE ART, keep playing your part, you on the right path, after recovery deeper emotions become a discovery, no longer numb, hard not to be real, and start to feel, but this may be the process of starting to heal

Struggling to find a rhyme , happens time after time, no one line can define, im walking on life 9 , these are Emotions of mine, use it , just don’t lose it , maybe the truth is at this moment I cant record it, hard to afford it, but I don’t abort it, here’s my lines, giving you full permission to snort it, take it into that brain, that like mine goes insane, I know how hard it can be to explain, such a strange mental pain hence why you feel as though you spitting the same story again an again

Don’t get it twisted, these words one day I will enlist it, on my way, taking steps every day, these words will one day push play, make my sound, be lifted up from underground, it’ll all be found, at this moment im soft and sound till I can afford it, to record it, they beg,sign sign me,well im here in my words you can find me , my life i rap to my heart beat, give the words they seek, emotions of mine life 9 its just a sneak peak, my destiny is what im trying to meet, guess I have to do it the hard way, but there will be a day, where there’s a will there’s a way

Why start over, now and then I look back, an give thanks for the place Im at, its hard to explain that I literally rap insane , going back to that place again an again in my mental brain, let them speak & debate, let some love and some hate, let some judge & relate, this is our fait , to be great, directed hate, sent into a psychotic state, to come back and be great, fulfil this fait, demonic, turned super fucking sonic, trip tronic, super speed, serve the words you need, just remember in Diablo we don’t believe

No Gangster G homee,im me, im a infinity 8 knocking on heavens gate, I guess im running late, already on life 9 spitting emotions of mine, till the end of the line, quikly running out of time, sniff it and snort it, cant abort it, find away to afford it, then fucking record it, I need no reward for it, no need a applaud it,in your brain I install it, use it or lose it, just don’t snooze it, no time to delay, no time such as today, here these words lay, what did you say? To soft an subtle hay, timing is everything and it seems to be the key, who taught this to me, you got a usb, but u cannot store me

Let me go yo yo, when I record it, once I afford it, ill release all this insane brain has stored, my mind is never bored, my words swing like ali;s gloves, like Hercules sword
So much memory, a usb can never define me, 1000 gig, that’s not even big, I’ll fill that with one flow, the alphabet lives in me, Im not a gangster gee, im a infinity 8 knocking on heavens gate

I keep going I keep flowing steal it , reveal it, aslong as you feel it, sign it and seal it, this is the real shit

Im an infinite 8 ….im running late….yet still knocking on heavens gate …



To be continued ...

Love & Lust Part 2

Is this love is this lust, the flames burnt & left coal and dust

First I chose to thrust , the sweat & heat I found in lust

Mistaking a heartbreaking for love

Love is not blind, I disagree, true love you can see, when its love you really find

When you know you know , watch true love grow, a short horrible description of lust is soon to follow, a ‘love’ that left me hollow
A love that was blind, a love that was not real, unfortunately these words I regret to reveal, but even words of hate they heal, better this way than another day, I am sorry for the words I am about to lay, but even "angels have their wicked wings"

Funny how things change

I no longer find it strange

Time to serve the verb, the word you most deserve

LUST

LUST??? Lussssssst??? Ye I said Lust !!

SLUT

The sound of your name makes me sick to my gut
Read part one, we done

Long gone, Bicycle, YOU the shit I chose to recycle
Chew you up spit you out, I know what you’re all about

Bicycle you’re the definition of a bitch insane on her pre menstrual cycle
Pms , Every day you’re the shit I digest

I’m so sorry, I try never express hate, but they say there’s a thin line and once you cross its to late

Time to stand up, iv had enough, to think I defended you
After all you put me through, after all I done for you
I Regret You !!

So glad you were never my first, that shit would now be the worst, a form of shame, you try bringing down my name?
Is it cause your bitter, pre menstrual cycle insane?
You can’t stand ill never be yours again?

I moved on, Bitch im happy you gone
Thanks for setting me free, it allowed me to open my eyes an see
You never were good for me, you never where good to me
You thought you destroyed me, haha you like a fly, all you can do is annoy me
A germ, Go crawl back where you came from you dirty worm
Go eat some more sperm, an maybe one day you’ll learn
RESPECT is something you earn

You got a grudge??
Did I break your little heart?
So you thought you’d get revenge, try ripping mine apart
By spreading hateful words as your form of art

Let me tell you a little secret, let me expose your own weakness
The SHIT you spray, the shit you say about me, they way u try make others doubt me
Keep doing it proudly, it makes one true vision of you not so cloudy
So get roudy, like a cow girl howdy
Be that bicycle, you im glad I chose to recycle, I don’t mean to be spiteful
But the truth is what you may need , fuck im glad I never planted my seed, here is my good deed, giving u the truth u need.


You see we can turn the other cheek, choose the words we speak, rise above the ones that hate, I do choose to give love to those that relate and try not express words of hate, I guess now and then maybe I enter some kind of antibiotic, detox the evil, psychotic, mental state, these words above are overdue and late, overdue yet serving them to you

And as for love, I know you’ve been sent from above
In you I find grace
My happy place
The love that keeps giving no matter my past , no matter the scars on my face
Our love has no gravity when I look into your eyes im lost in space
You are the one, you have taught me the true meaning of not only how to love, but what it feels like to be truly loved

So Corinthians 13 , Faith , Hope & Love

I have faith in what we share
Hope that your love will always be there
I appreciate that you truly care
Life is not always fair, but with your love their, with our love in the air
Nothing in this world could ever compare, I forgot lust, clean & serene for more than 3 years, purified, let go of my pride, came out from where I chose to hide, in love I chose to confide, of all the gifts God chose love as the greatest sent to the human race from above

You are the greatest gift, I found love, I found grace, I found my Angel sent from heavens Space

Its Hard To Explain

Haven’t posted for a whee whee little while
Time to unleash this style, quik fix, bust a freestyle

Hmmm which one was coming soon I cant remember
Today marks the 22nd Septemeber, , guess the shit I cant help but remember

You died today, 21 Months have gone and flown away
Gets more real day by day
Pray for the pain to go away, then pray for this physical emotional feeling to stay
Maybe addicted to the pain, to the feeling. Somehow still healing , time to start revealing

Yes I remember, 22nd September 22 nd December

THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

I stood up, never shed a tear, overcame this fear,im still standing here
tried to explain how I went insane
How I find my way back again, but I can explain again and again, its all in vain, its still the same, its still hard to explain, please take me out this rain, show me this is not in vain

GOD HEAR ME
GOD HELP ME
GOD DON’T JUDGE ME
GOD SAVE ME

LEAD ME NOT INTO TEMPTATION
GUIDE ME THROUGH EVIL

HELP ME ACHIEVE WHAT I BELIEVE
CURE THESE SCARS, CURE THESE WOUNDS
I DON’T WANT TO BLEED
GOD GIVE ME WHAT I NEED TO SUCCEED
Give me no more than I need
BUT LET ME GIVE THOSE AROUND ME , THE BEST OF ME

I WANT TO GIVE HER EVERYTHING, ALL OF ME, I WANT HER TO BE MY DESTINY, I WANT HER TO ALWAYS BE PROUD OF ME, HAPPY WITH ME, LOVE ME FOR ME, STAND BY ME , I WANT HER TO BE MY MEANT TO BE
IF YOUR WILL COULD GIVE THIS TO ME
DON’T LET ME FAIL, HELP ME PREVAIL
OCEANS I WANT TO SAIL
BE IT THROUGH STORMS OF HAIL,WITH A HEAVY SCALE
A BROKEN NAIL,A GIVEN TAIL,A BROKEN WING, I WILL FLY
EAGLE SKY
SET ME FREE HELP ME FIND THE THE PLACE I LONG TO BE
GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AN GUIDENCE TO HELP MAKE HER EVERY DREAM COME TRUE, ILL SACRAFICE ALL OF ME FOR THIS TO BE
I WANT TO MAKE MY DAD PROUD, AND NEVER STOP MAKING HIM PROUD
I WANT TO MAKE My MOM SMILE, KNOWING HER SON BECAME ONE!!

I WANT TO FULFILL A GREATER PURPOSE, PAINT MY PORTRAIT A SPECIAL WAY, YOUR HOLY WAY, I LIVE FOR THIS DAY

I WANT THOSE THAT KNOW ME TO REMEMBER ME FOR ME, AND WHO I CHOSE TO BE
A Disciple Of Christ , a D.O.C
AND TO NEVER FORGET ME
DONNY
DONOVAN
OR DON

LET THEM BE HAPPY THEY NEW ME WHEN IM GONE

I want them to remember my song
The rise and the fall
The survivor through it all

Its hard to explain, but the ambition in my vain
Is what keeps me coming back again

Sane or insane
Wild or tame
Humble or vain
No more than a name
Don’t care for fame
Mental toughness in my brain
Hard to explain
But im back again
Faith and rain

My Sincere Apology

This is my sincere apology
Take a mental picture , words too can be like photography
Visualise this image, hidden in every phrase, letters to you on this page
Today is the day
That I express an find the strength for the words iv so longed to say

This one is for you Annie

Not a day goes by, that I do not think of the tears you have been forced to cry
I know that growing up for you it was extremely tough

You entered this world, a blessing a beautiful girl

I looked over the seat, the day we would first meet, I can still remember
U rapped in a white towel, in the parking lot, a little sister I have got

In February in 1993 you opened your eyes , the world you started to see
One of your first visions your big brother, ,me

When I was in rehab, I received a letter, one of collateral damage iv caused you
Only then did I realise what my actions had put you through
A pain like that, tears of shame, guilt an blame, were resting heavy on my name

I cried , turned to the corner, as your words were read aloud, I tried to hide, it broke my pride

Every word based on pain my addiction had caused in your life, every word to my gut a different knife
NEVER have I felt so small in my life

Every word was true, so selfish that till that moment I never understood what you were going through
I never could gain the strength to tell you
So I told myself I would show you
No matter what it is I have to go through, I will show you how sorry I am
I know I can, and one day write you this rhyme, on my own time

You visited me a little while later, You entered the rehab, I can still remember your beautiful face coming through that green gate

I was in another state, myself I really did hate, tears I cried once more
I bet you never knew what for

I walked past Mom an Dad, held you tight, never felt so much love in my life, as though I was blind an in this moment I found sight

I decided to do what was right, stand up an fight
COME BACK

Be a brother that you can be proud of , a brother like no other, When we were young I protected you like a father a Mother, You were my one an only little sister, I new id never have another

I am so sorry for all the pain iv caused, im so sorry for all you had to go through

I know that I only play a small part of the pain in your heart, I know you’ve had it so hard right from the start, I always tried to protect you, never neglect you, I always have an always will stick out my neck for you

I love you, forever you and I no mountains to high, one day we can fly to the sky we have overcome so much together, an still will forever

Not only do I want to apologise for me, but for everything you have had to endure
Love can be a cure, its made you the amazing person you are today

I promise you , you will be okay, and your brother loves you and is here for you every day, I know you understand what im trying to say

I want to thank you
For always believing in me, when there was a time I didn’t believe in myself

Words ill never forget you said

Even though you lost your mind, you will always be my hero

You told me this when I was at zero

I LOVE YOU

So this is my apology, Words can live forever, mental picture , photography

NO FEAR

HIDE THESE PILLS, pretend to take it, Fake it till you make it, my mind is clear
NO FEAR!!

The real Don is over here

F.E.A.R – Fuck Everything And Run


Nah !! NEXT surprise before your eyes


F.E.A.R – Face Everything And RISE!!!!!!!!

Stories found in so many eyes

World war one, World war two, greatness is something you find only within YOU

The best I choose to bring out, my gifts I explore

I don’t know what may be in store, I don’t know what tomorrow will bring

But today I sing, a happy tune, a full moon, excited for what may be coming soon
A new day, a new dawn, another noon, another chance, oxygen an life is another trance, time to dance, dance an sing, time to be a King, follow your dreams

Believe in yourself, Believe in you, there’s nothing in this world you cannot do

Time to smile, start your own style, your own fashion, trend, no need to blend, love I send to my heavenly friend,these words are my passion
They make me happy my form of satisfaction, trying to invent a new alphabet, paying back my debt, getting rid of regret, if I have any left

Forever writing, forever fighting, I am a fire-fighter, I distinguished the fire
Darkness became brighter & brighter

Wisdom unleashed, free the deceased
Untie the leash, captured in another state, the hit debate, am I asleep or awake
Is this reality, is this a dream?
What have those eyes seen, where has that vessel been, what runs in your blood
Bloodline, bloodline, life 9, appreciation so fine


Time for that new alphabet

I choose not to regret, not to forget , PAY my debt, walk through storms and thunder, don’t care if I get wet, not afraid of what waits down under

Fighter aswel as a lover, love to my brother, love to my mother, Living my life for me an my family like no other

Thankful for what iv got, stop looking at what there is not

Remember the name, this is called the letter game, this is called insane to sane , ambition running through my vain

I will rise again and again

Haters will hate, an wish for me to fail, and as I prevail, they will fall away one by one, see I never will be done, im taking a jog, taking a run, having lots of fun, under the sun
Till I become one

Holy Spirit Son

D.O.C

I am free

I am me

So hate me

Love me

Judge me

Grudge me

Nothing will stop me

When i chose to surrender

A day ill forever remember is the day I chose to surrender

What does it mean to surrender, does it mean you’ve given up, you’ve reached the end of the line, like in battle its time, retreat, accept defeat, the end you feel you about to meet

No, this would be incorrect, allow me to define
When one chooses to surrender, it’s a feeling so fine
The sun in your life is about to shine

You surrender all of yourself, over to a greater power, like baptism, I believe its another form of a spiritual shower
All the bad gets handed over sent to hell, that smell, its your wrongs burning in the fire

Purified

We all have secrets, shame,guilt we choose to hide, maybe its hidden beneath a deadly sin known as pride, life can be a roller coaster ride, Tighten that seat belt, happiness isn’t measured through cash wealth, The guilt the shame, it can be bad for your health, Others we choose to blame, cant fathom the shame, then its time we find a better reason for them to remember our name

My name is Don, I use to choke on the bong, THE lolly made me Jolly, The CAT SCRATCHED MY FACE, big disgrace, im not white , not black, another kind of race, see im like a Oreo black an white another form of race, im from outer space, sent to change this place, then leave you all an be lost without a trace, ALIEN

Im going back to space

A heavenly space I found through grace, through surrendering my soul

My sins an wrongs started to take its toll, my guilt and shame played the biggest part in me going insane, but this was never in vain, FAITH restored helped me rise again

Have you seen a miracle, or have you only heard of such fairy tales?
Have you tried yet failed to change your ways?
Have you asked God for help for better days?

I have, I did, at first he chose not to answer my prayers
I chose to turn my back on God, he never turned his back on me, an angel told me
I blamed God, yet through moments of Insanity, and times alone, I always seemed to find Christianity

Serendipity, FINDING SOMETHING GOOD WITHOUT SEARCHING FOR IT

Now that was some HOLY shit

Truth is God saved me, God knows my story, he found me, turned my pain to Glory
Evil never was for me, more than once he sent his Angels to restore me

He sent Angels to open my eyes, and stop confiding in the demons in disguise
He opened heavens skies, told me to have faith, find faith, and once I do for me waits the greatest prize

These scary visions ,images, memories, I try describe, some I try to hide, oceans of tears I have cried
God saw the pain I kept buried inside
In the Holy Spirit I chose to confide

I said a prayer

God help me
God set me free
Help me find that place I long to be
This is not my Destiny

I cried once more

GOD please help me
These dark places inside
They killing me
God hear my prayer
God show me you there
Set me free
Please forgive me
This is my confession

These are my wrongs, these are my sins, please help me carry these great burdens
This load is heavy, Im no longer standing steady
Im about to fall, im on my last breathe

These wrongs will bring upon my death
God your all I have left

You’re the only one, please God forgive me, forgive your son

I want to make amends, I wanna know what it feels like to have real friends
I want to know love, A love gifted on earth an from above

I fear no man, with you God there’s nothing I cant , an everything I can
At this moment im no more than a silly boy, help me stand once more and become a man

God I beg help me, I surrender all of me to thee, Help me see
I choose to follow my destiny
Take this empty soul, God make it whole

I may not be worthy of forgiveness, these are my wrongs
I handover my list

Humans will sin, I look back an pretend that was my evil deadly twin
After all I am a Gemini, I was low, now I soar above the sky
God has showed me the greatest high

I look back an never ask God why

I say thank you for not letting me die, for never leaving my side
For sparing my life, for blessing me with life

Today I appreciate the finer things, like the birds that sing in the morning
Waking up alive an yawning, on this blog i am performing

I am no longer mourning, everyday I am changing, I am learning, respect an trust I am earning

Today I am in love with the most gorgeous Angel gifted to me from God above
I posses true friendships, I try walk the most righteous path, I truly smile, I can be happy I can laugh
I still fail, but I get up an never give up till I prevail
I am not perfect, but everyday I try taking a step to be better, to be great, I live by faith

To find my purpose, to do something so great, it’s never too late, so why wait, I believe in fait

Before I took so much for granted, when I chose to surrender appreciation was granted

More than three years later I can be phased by no hater

I can appreciate a relater

They say I inspire, my greatest desire
My mind God chose to re-wire

He walked into hell took me by my hand
Pulled me out the burning fire
With God by my side I just get Holy Higher

God gifted me his hand, and thanks to God I stand

He shows me my promised land


Have you seen a miracle, or have you only heard of such fairy tales?
Have you tried yet failed to change your ways?
Have you asked God for help for better days?

God help me
God set me free
Help me find that place I long to be
This is not my Destiny

Amen

Till the day we meet again

I cannot remember our first hello, but I can remember our last goodbye

Not a day goes by, not a day goes by, …

That this cold part in my heart doesn’t cry

I pray & I pray, another day, another way, ill get a chance to say, the words in this ink I cannot lay, I cannot type, I cannot write, but I tell you this we stand together , side by side forever, I stand for you, your spirit stands beside me so true

An your mother, well let me tell you this brother, she’s one of a kind, there’s no other

I know you proud, standing strong up there on your cloud

Shit it must be cloud 9, Im still hanging down here on life 9

Tell me bro, you living it up with like sexy bitches an heavens wine?

Sniffing some kind of holy line?

Bet that shit made you smile that sexy smile, that could never cramp a style

But let me be real, this life its like a wheel, it turns an turns, like Russian roulette
Come on place your bet, only one bullet left, should I go right, go right or left
This trigger could hold your death, shit, this could be my final breathe

Life flashing before my eyes, will this bullet be my next surprise, where’s the truth, can no longer stand these lies, bitches look me in the eyes, they say I give them butterflies, they just don’t know what it is that I disguise, hidden in these deadly rhymes

Iv expressed it a 1000 times, look deep beneath my eyes

A hidden Mc, but they cant see, see me, they blind, you see we are forever young the glock the gun , when we die, we found, like buried up from underground, a forgotten Son, now we dead now we done?

Sorry son, for you that would be fun, but this shit has just begun
Spirit OF ONE, FEAR none, they became one

Together they live forever, forever young they stand

WRITTEN in the palm of my hand, we stand

To lose a brother, to be so close to death, to have a heart so great die beside you, it can ignite something you never even knew lived inside of you

They say Don!!! SET yourself realistic goals, I say ill set 5 realistic, 5 impossible, an maybe the next surprise, before my eyes will be me doing what they perceive to not believe , something I know can & will achieve..
If I can escape reality, why settle for realistic an a earthly gravity?

You see I no longer live for just me, all I do, all I achieve , is for you too

Anyway I put that on your name, I can overcome pain, I can come back from going insane, when they wanted to put me in a institution, I showed them there’s another solution
My state sent them into such confusion, is this the conclusion?
Got rid of the lithium, mental pollution, shed some fat, I still got your hat, thanks for that
Bro i met this girl, she rocked my world, I wish you could meet her, she fills the void, this dark place, when I get sad I see her face, within her I truly found grace, she’s become my happiest place, one day you’ll meet her, as I believe she could be my soul mate, an I am sure you can relate when I say that souls in heaven are together forever till death does us part, heaven becomes the next start

If writing is my form of art, Im glad my loved ones an you play a part

Till the day we meet again in my heart is where ill keep you friend

Blood, love forever, rest in Peace my friend, it’s the beginning not the end

Words only you up there can comprehend, thanks for all the strength you send

Never will I forget, never will I regret, never will I let go, check this shit, about to put on a show

A quick little life freestyle for you, I remember how you use to love this shit bru

Everyone chose to judge, some held a grudge

Little did they know, the spirit of De Jager would grow

An be in the face of haters everywhere they go

LET me tell you what I know
In a special spit a sweet flow
Ye he shagged your ho, there’s a reason she’s a ho
Sorry for you bro, Ye he beat the shit out your friend
A good reason for the message he chose to send
A true blood will always stand you chose to force his hand
Respect is something you earn, the past he chose to burn
A heart like no other, don’t care what you say
His my brother!!!

Champion!!

Dear Dad

I could never thank you enough for all I have

Iv been good, iv been bad, but Iv been so blessed having you as my Dad

I look back at the life iv had, an no matter what I could always turn to my Dad

As a young boy, I may have been to young to understand
The wrath of a father’s hand, I chose to rebel your every command

Looking back now it was the wrath of my father’s hand that helped me stand

By rebelling I almost ended up buried in the sand

Something’s, some events are better left unsaid, but the dark path I chose to walk
The path of which in detail I choose never to talk

That path had a deadly end, an im so blessed to have found the love of my father before the end.

Lost on my own, you became my truest, most loyal friend

Once more I became a little boy scared and lost in the dark
Dad you gave me a spiritual spark

I know these words you’ll comprehend

Many sons grow up resenting their father, not knowing their fathers, losing their fathers to death

I’m proud to say, my father is a huge part of who I am today

My father will forever be in my heart, in my life everyday in who I may become he will always play a part

With every decision I make, its your voice that often stops me from making that crucial mistake

You have taught me how to overcome struggles, the importance of trust and truth

You have taught me how to distinguish between what’s wrong & what’s right

You’ve taught me how to stand up an fight, never give up till I find the light

You have taught me that when one door closes another opens

You have taught me the true meaning of having faith, an trusting my life in the hands of God

You taught me what is meant to be will be
Thanks to you I finally see, that God has a plan, a path destined for me

Dad thank you for always standing by your Son, Thank you for your years of sacrifice
Thanks for giving me the best most valuable wise advice
Thank you Dad for giving me life

Most of all thank you for been a father like no other

I love you, thank you

One of my most valuable possessions is a trophy I have
A rugby trophy

On this Saturday a 10 year old boy was taking part in a rugby tournament in Drakenstein

Before the final game a boy sat for 2 hours speaking to his father his father advising him on how to play, and how to be fearless

He ran onto the field with no fear in his heart

A few hours later this boy got handed a trophy

Player of the tournament

This been one of my most special memories

Anything can be accomplished when you have no fear in your heart for failure

Time to Shine

Lately I haven’t had the time to write

Iv been battling, I was in a fight

A fight with my own life, the bitch pulled out a knife

Stabbed me in the gut, stupid slut

I fell to the ground, I started to mourn

Wow, what a horrible sound, self pity

Life started to laugh at me; life was getting the better of me

And Mother Nature loved this; I thought nah man im not going down like this

I breathed deep, clenched my fist, pity party is over!!

I won’t just roll over, instead ill stand up and start over

Its 12 August 10:05, Don is writing live, Don is alive

Today I look this bitch, Mother Nature, life in the eye

Hello, high , I believe I can fly

You knocked me down, made me frown, time to turn this frown Sunnyside upside down

I won’t just stand once more, Ill fly, higher than ever before

Taking little for granted, a new seeds been planted

Time to let it grow, show the world all I know

Time to trade blow for blow

I can withstand more than you understand

I look to the palm of my hand

Life line, life 9 , time to shine

MEMORIES!!

Mesmerize, try disguise
The look beneath your eyes, fireflies and butterflies
Is what I see when I look into her eyes

Found the truth within my lies, found blue skies in her eyes
What lives in my memory, has built my destiny

Take this moment, the best rapper alive said, freeze it an own it
You think you’ve blown it?

FAILURE IS WHAT HAPPENS BEFORE YOU OWN IT!!

Memorize but never disguise!!

Channel those feelings visible through your soul through your eyes

Life is a story, you have a choice between pain and glory

Within pain one can find beauty, that’s why I am thankful it stood before me

Shit mate, this rhyme is cliché and starting to bore me
If your reading this , tell yourself there’s a reason these words are standing before me

Black and white, yep!!
We all have our troubles, we all have our struggles
We all have our fight
We have a choice to do what’s wrong and what’s right?
Just because your eyes can see, does not mean you posses the gift of sight?
Eyes tell lies too, they can hide the truth from even YOU!!

So when life’s beaten you black an blue?

What do you do?

You look into the mirror search within You!!

You tell yourself
This is what I am going to do

I’m going to overcome you
Look me in the eye, Fuck you!!

I have had it I am done!!

You think you’ve won?

I am a prodigy of the Father , The Holy Spirit and The Son


I forever Fear none!!!

I will stand an fight my fight till I Become one!!

You can lead me into temptation, but I will be delivered from the evil one!

In your darkness I find Sun!!

I find a new day, I am Forever Young!!

The devil can keep asking me to dance, ill forever say never

You see this good shit is good, an my choice is to keep it together

FEAR NONE, BECOME ONE AND YOU WILL BE FOREVER YOUNG

Subconscious State

These words I don’t choose to write
Like my dreams, it’s a subconscious state
Just as you to my own thoughts I too relate, dreams we can’t escape
Neither our memories our feelings our subconscious state

Some choose to debate, some out of jealousy start to hate, those that care smile as they understand why I posses this subconscious state, it really is our world to create, art is expression, expression comes in more than one form be creative time to transform, stand out , blend away from the norm

In us all a destiny is born, a purpose & lessons we have yet to learn
Recognition is not what I want to earn
I desire to inspire, within some re – ignite a fire
To lift a little higher, and to those burning extinguish your painful fire
Help you change, your past maybe you need to re – arrange
By starting today, starting a new page
Letting go of great rage, in good the bad can engage
Don’t fear change, don’t fear what’s strange

As I write an enter this subconscious state, I free my hate, I free my crazy state, an emotional alphabetical completely ethical, yet toxic chemical, my crazy wild imagination, flowing across many a nation, a beautiful infiltration, they say Don become a councillor , go see a councillor, to my life an yours im the ring announcer
Hold on, hold on, hold your applause, I need no councillor, my best friend died, go get some grief therapy, fuck that, his death plays role in my destiny
Don your chronically ill, for the rest of your life pop this an that pill
No I have a stronger will
More than 3 years I have not popped a pill
Anti psychotic, lithium to my brain is toxic
Clouded state, I prefer to call it my special subconscious state
Maybe the world does not relate, but check this shit I create
Donny must be crazy, the hit debate, but shit your crazy too because you relate
Some will love some will hate, I walk by faith, talk by faith, live by faith
Believe so great, that what’s meant to be will be, hate me or love me, you can stand on pillars above me, mock me, an shove me, God no matter what will always love me

Thankful for my every struggle, if its in my destiny make it double

You see once you’ve experienced pain so great, that it forever lives in your subconscious state, nightmares almost every night, everyday your mind you fight, an just before night you find the light, then once more the nightmares come and take your sight, once you’ve experienced this pain, there’s no thunder, no hail, no rain, no pain from which you cannot prevail

Stronger than ever , I got to keep it together for now an forever


BELIEVE
SACRAFICE
DISCIPLINE

Relapsing on you

I’ve been procrastinating taking my time
I’ve been contemplating thinking of the perfect line
No letter as fine, words flowing till the end of time could ever describe what it feels like having you by my side; my feelings for you are beyond ocean wide
Goosebumps and shivers run down my spine as I hold your hand in mine
Wake me up I must be dreaming, my soul, your love it is healing

In the dark of the night as I lose sight I find comfort waking up hearing you breathing by my side
Thanks to beautiful you I am no longer alone, I know I wake up grumpy, maybe even moan and groan

Allow me to express the unknown

To wake up with you in my life my world is the best part of my everyday
You the answer to THE prayers pray
When skies turn blue after been grey, that’s a metaphor of the role in my life you play
You really do brighten my every day
I hope the day never comes where we forced to go a separate way
Then once more the sky above will turn grey

Through summer, through winter, through spring
I don’t care I believe what we have is strong enough to conquer anything

A beginning with no end, feelings for you so great you may never comprehend
With me ill never pretend, I don’t need to blend, I want to be your Lover, BUT I also want to be your best friend

These words I type backspace, erase, not good enough for you, so unfulfilling, id tear it up a 1000 times if it wasn’t digital and instead written on a page
Maybe I was a bird trapped in a cage, unhappy till you set me free
You in my life was written in my destiny
I prayed many nights for you, I’m so happy I found you
Caleche, you’re making my dreams come true
The nightmares slowly fade, nightmares from my past I use to re live in my dreams
A place with no escape, my subconscious state, but now when I wake
I no longer tremble, I no longer shake, I wake up knowing I am not alone
Ones past we cannot erase, but every day with you is a new page
Its hard to forget yesterday, but today I recreate the past of yesterday
Memories with you like movie scenes, flashing smiles, I wish I could tell you how much this means

I wish I could express exactly what it is I feel, but I want you to know with you I can definitely distinguish what is real an the way I feel for you is beyond real, a feeling I could never control, you free my soul, growing stronger an stronger, a new kind of drug, it must be your love, you call me your love, but iv cross addicted crazy to you, always high on you, an when I Am not with you I seriously withdraw they call this cold turkey, but your the only cure for me
So I relapse, relapse on you I feel amazing no longer sad, no longer grey, no longer blue
I’m high because I found you

I am falling deeper an deeper, maybe starting to drown, then you lift me up before I touch the ground, you give me oxygen , I breathe in this purified air, you let me know your there, you let me know you care, I get lost in your eyes I start to stare, the world around I couldn’t care, all that matters is you’re here , you’re there, making my world go round, picking me up from underground, your heartbeat, my heartbeat on repeat, the softest most beautiful sound

I was trapped I was lost, thanks to you I’m found

28Th of June

I know that it’s not yet the 28th of June, BUT
This is important an deserves to be published soon

Once upon a time in June 1989
A boy was born on a day the Sun chose to shine

He may not have been planned; he may have been a surprise
Yet he felt so much love the first time he ever looked into his mommy’s eyes

The say a mothers love for her son is like no other
Thanks to you Mom, this iv learnt to discover
Thank you for tucking me in every night, and never forgetting to kiss and say goodnight
Thanks for keeping the door a little open so there was a light shining through my room when I was afraid of the dark at night

Thank you for never leaving my side, thanks for been the one within who I could always confide
Thanks for wiping away all the tears I cried
Thanks for holding my hand in tough times when all I wanted to was run and hide
A mom like you there is no other; my love for you is one of a kind
The kind of love you’ll never find
Time passes so quickly an often we wish we could rewind
But happy loving memories with you live forever in my mind
In my heart, you will always be, thanks for always seen the beauty in me

This is about to go a little deep, please do not weep

I made many mistakes; I know iv caused your heart to break
I never ever intended to hurt or upset you
I never ever wanted to mistreat or neglect you
You’re my mom I will always love an respect you
But Mom I’m truly sorry for all iv put you through

I know you’ll say its okay an tell me your proud of where I am today
I know there are countless nights for my safety, sanity, an serenity you would pray
I always use to say, ‘Mom I will die before you do’
An you’d reply ‘A Mother never wants to see her sons life taken before hers’

Well today I say,
Mom I am happy and I am okay
Your son will be right there holding your hand on your last day
I can vision it no other way
An as I hold your hand on this day I dread, you’ll rest peacefully knowing I have made you proud
An as you take your final breathe, you’ll look into my eyes an know your son has always loved you to death

You were there when I felt I had nothing left
You helped me get over my regret
You’ve read my every post, my every rhyme
For me you’ve taken the time
An yes my words are deep an sometimes when I write I depressively weep
But that’s what makes me unique I can go deep, I can weep, I can cry, I can live when I was meant to die, I can have a manic low, a manic high, but I can pick myself up after a dark place so deep an be thankful for the tears iv cried, an as on the day I was born the sun will shine
Just like me I will come out instead of hide
I will go play happily outside

Thanks for believing in me an my every word
Thanks for loving me more than I may deserve
Thank you for been there through the good and bad, the happy and sad
A better mom I could not have

I love you forever an always

Thank you for been my mom

Love to the stars an back from your only Son

D.O.B June 12 1989 Gemini

Today marks the date of my birth, 25 years ago I opened my eyes entered this world, arrived here on earth..
Before I arrived I was a mistake, at best a surprise, Good an Evil in disguise
Yet I was born too surprise, I had a destiny, my road had been paved, everything till this day was meant to be, meant for me

Open your eyes, look at me, if u know me, you may realise you can never count me out , failing an standing up is what life is all about
You see iv had many troubles along the way, till this very day, I saw my end, More than once I stared my own death in its eye, and as I was leaving floating high up in the sky, through the lightning through the storms,I kept fighting, what was once frightening became my enlightening, what was once my form of bleakness turned weakness an left people in my life speechless became my strongest strength
Ill never forget the tears alone I cried, ill never forget the pain which from you best I hide
Only few get to see my best side, as I was drifting in the sky, asking God to take my life. ‘End this shit, I just fucking want to die’

I looked down at this earth the place of my life, my birth..
The tears started to dry, and that’s when I realised I could never leave without saying Goodbye

I walked through hell, burnt flesh was the only smell, sucked in my tears, faced my fears, faced my demons, scars remain and stay the same after battling through thes years, but who can say they faced their fears?

God guided me through hell, to bring me back, back to heaven, back to you
You have no idea the struggles I have gone through to come back to you
To regain my soul from a place so dark, a place so cold, a place where spirits have been sold

Today I appreciate the finer things in life, no longer need to carry a knife, I appreciate how the son warms my skin, I appreciate the meaning behind a new day is about to begin
I appreciate the oxygen I take in
I get a little emotional on days Like today, tomorrow my D.O.B
I guess I just feel beyond blessed to still be here today on earth

Established June 12 1989
I came back, back to who ? you? No not you, I found me I came back to me
Don , Donny . Donovan

ALL 3 I SET THEM FREE

No Love is the same

It’s a cold rainy night, its dark, but soon it will be light, tiredness we try fight
As we lay side by side, her head on my chest, this girl, this beauty, I think my heart wants to invest
She whispers no love is the same; do you posses the kind of love that keeps me warm in this winter rain?
Miss, do u perhaps posses the kind of love that may never be in vain?
Is it your love that may one day keep me sane?

Love is rare, yet love is out there
To be fair, I always wondered where
Will you be the one I love?
Either way love or not I’m thankful for what I have got
An within you it’s more than I could ask for, an I ask for a lot
You represent peace, you represent true, you represent red, and you represent blue
Red as the blood slowly flowing to my heart, blue as the holy water cleansing my soul

You searched an found the good in me, an for you I want to set it free
Give you this hidden side, a side for years I chose to hide
I got hurt it dented my pride, so vulnerability I chose to hide
Never be seen as weak, think before I speak, be cautious of the feelings I choose to release
Anything you say can an will be used against you
You broke down a wall, an to be honest your so special
I smiled as I watched it fall
I decided I want to give you my best, give you may all
If in the end I am standing tall, or if I am quick to fall
You’re worth it all

My heart may have been on reserve, I may have lost my nerve
But she did not deserve, on the way there, you were the curve
U made me swing; you made me turn, in your eyes I started to learn
Within you I found a light, your beauty your kindness burnt away the pain of yesterday
Within you I found happiness, a new day

No love is the same; you get different kinds of love
Whether we like, lust or love
You’re more than just an angel sent from above

Unrestricted, Limitless

I think I am soul searching, the past I am deserting
I am no longer hurting, parts of me are just dead, and they have died
Washed away with all the tears I cried, wont let nothing breaks my stride

I shouldn’t run or try hide, the deadly evil inside, send the darkness to the light
Let the good and evil fight, God made stars to give the darkness light, he gave oxygen to fuel life.

Let my soul be pure, through you I find a cure
You heal the broken heart; u put back together what’s been ripped apart
U determine the end before the start, I am your form of art.

Your design, an image of man, a image of you, a image so true

Going off the topic, going slightly psychotic, hypnotic you think you’ve got it?
Entering this spiritual reality, eyes opened through insanity, like dogs see only in black and white, I am gifted with another form of sight
Maybe a third eye, truth no lie, I see what’s wrong I see what’s right
I see the true evil in the night, I choose to fight for what’s right
I face evil demons in your dreams at night
An make sure they disappear before light, burn by the light of day

Accepted a reality of insanity, good an evil spirits, lost trying to find their way
For them I pray night and day
I think I am soul searching, the past I am deserting
I am no longer hurting, parts of me are just dead, and they have died
Washed away with all the tears I cried, wont let nothing breaks my stride

Pick it up, pick it up, Time to take this to the next level
Some will say I did great, some will say I changed my own fait
Jealousy will cause some to hate
Some will say Don you did swell, you’ve done well
You dug your way out of hell
You stood up after you fell

Truth be told I am not nearly there, haters best prepare, best beware
Life is not always fair, but u can either sit there, or you can stand up an keep fighting Don don’t stop writing, through thunder rain, hail an lightning
Don’t ever give up, don’t ever stop fighting
You see when you do what you do for something greater than you
There are no boundaries no limits
Today 21 tomorrow day 22 , DJ ill be thinking of you
Not mourning, as for you to I am performing
Time to step it up, I am never going to be satisfied with just good enough
You never could be, and I never would be
All my life criticised, underestimated, judged, told id be an under achiever
All my life a giver never receiver
A donor, not a bleeder
I AM A BELIEVER
An under dog underground, softly spoken
Was lost, guess what.. I am found
In silence I find sound
They know not what inside me as been awoken
I want to thank you for the token
An inspiring a light inside me to slowly re build an fix what’s been broken
My desire is to inspire and lift souls higher
To ignite a fire, an show you the difference between Truth an a liar
Nothing is impossible, you were all wrong about me
You who chose to doubt me are now without me
But thank you your hate to is what helped me

Pick up; pick it up, next level
This is only the start
Ambition and more forever in my blood forever in my heart

Purity vs Security

Just when I gave up, just when I completely let go, u decided to show
Why have you chosen to re – appear, fighting this year after year, a pain so strong that I thought would never leave never be gone
Are you my weakness??
Have you come back to heal me of this bleakness
Should I give in, or should I keep this

I have no idea what I should do
My heart, should I close or open for you
Do you posses a love that’s true?

Should I re-visit the past, fix what left me broken, an this time try make happiness last
Lost between securities and insecurity what should I choose, what might I lose?
What may I gain?
Nothings the same, I have guilt I have shame, I am the only one to blame
I have changed, was this needed for you to come back again
My mind you officially confuse, what should I choose
Purity or security?
You offer me safety and security
Yet I feel I want purity
This is all so unclear to me, does this belong here with me
Within purity I may never find security, but every minute feels like the cure for me

Why now, after years of pain, do u find me standing alone in the rain an open your arms for me again?
Once more, what for?
My heart between two it has been tore

They say Don leave the past in the past that is where it will always belong
You have moved on , right here is where you belong
But what happens when my past suddenly comes knocking on my door
And asks to come inside, and says Don lets go for a ride
We need to talk, we took a long walk
We went our separate ways, we experienced better days
But alone like two lost strays
Two lost souls, there’s a part forever alone, missing singular, sole, u posses what makes me whole
The days are starting to take its toll
A dark art, a dark part of my heart, give it back, let’s go back to the start

Iv come so far, came out the dark , shining like a star, finding purity in my soul
Purity making me hole, purity pulling me out that whole
Taking my bleakness accepting my weakness
I think I should keep this, I think I should stay
I think you should go the fuck away; purity may not be here to stay
Yet is here today, taking all my pain away, treating me the kind of way
I never felt I deserve or would ever receive, in purity I believe
Purity may not give me the security you place on the table
But in been pure, I find cure, I find happiness I never felt I deserve, never felt id find
And to choose security over purity would mean I am really blind.

Underground

Struggles come, struggles go, this I already know
After struggles survival is one of many things we have to show
I know that I am born to survive, meant to be alive, and forever strive
I am not meant to hide, World wide, I’m on the other side, of the ocean tide
Should I send a message in a bottle, I’m going full throttle, at times I run out of fuel
Forgetting how to give up this been my hidden rule
Born to succeed, never taking more than I need, truth is off what I feed
Truth I seek, the truth I speak, blessed to be different, blessed unique
Lucky am I ?
They say, hey who’s that guy?
What guy?
The guy with the scar below his eye
I don’t know why?
His leaving, oh okay Goodbye
Guy with the scar under your eye
My presence made an impression
You wanted to know my story
In my pain you found glory
My surroundings started to bore me
This world is not for me
Something still in store for me
Glasses of life please pour for me

I am awake to my every mistake, in my Dreams I cant help re visit maybe re live what makes my heart break, a subconscious state of which many can relate
Dreams and their meanings forever we debate
In this life we find love we find hate, sometimes very hard to differentiate
Love can turn to a state of hate
Hate can turn to something great
Channelled emotions, channelled pain, never in vain
Let’s be cleansed by the purest rain
Blood turned rain, happiness found after pain
Pride after shame, innocence after blame
You need to be wild to be tamed
And born to be named
All rhetorical, problems can be psychological
FAILURE is not optional
Dinosaurs philosophical, found hidden in a past time
Like this rhyme , underground, buried to be discovered in another lifetime

D.O.C

Words could never describe this feeling inside
The pain I hide within my pride, I thought I found someone within who I could confide
I am thankful as it was one amazing ride , I guess its high tide, to deep I drowned she frowned when she saw my other side, the side I try so hard to hide.

Sometimes the hardest thing can be holding back these tears..
I guess I am rather damaged from my past years
DROP a tear, wipe away the tear stand up, face this fear.
Maybe best alone, don’t come near, just stay away, leave me here
Life goes on iv done wrong, I cant change this, accept an just move on

Run an never look back, keep running, leave this place, lost in space, leave without a trace
Where will I go, where am I meant to be, hand me this key, show me my destiny
Guilty I plead, I am so sorry, they say Don don’t worry , everything will be okay ..
You don’t know, you never will, you never have..
Where will this road go, high or down low, life an death , final breath
Hard to digest, what is right before your eyes, hidden in disguise in these words a life sentence I serve?

Look deep, it’s eating me inside, actions so toxic I can no longer hide, look really deep
Look real close, find my key, and unlock it,
I JUST CAN’T STOP IT.
Put a gun to my head ill ask u to cock it
I got so many triggers; I guess its something mental, forever resentful
Trigger my anger in motion; figure I need some kind of magic potion
Before this all turns into a nuclear explosion

Climb into my mind, climb into my brain within seconds you’d be insane, you have no idea what I deal with day by day, try see through my eyes, my vision ,Insanity is my everyday reality, there’s so many things words could never say.

I pray every single day, that my sanity is here to stay, I fight my thoughts day in day out, inside my emotions they scream they shout, running completely wild inside, I hide this in my pride, the person I see in the mirror is the only one within who I can really confide, he knows all my secrets, he knows all my shame, he knows what’s going on in my brain,
God lives in me, God shines through me, but man ate from the forbidden tree, so evil to lives in me.
The truth will set me free?

..Maybe hidden in disguise, behind every letter behind every phrase, a hidden truth, page after page, some written in moments of rage, moments of depression, channelled aggression, hard to make sense??
My thoughts they racing at the speed of light, sometimes its hard to see what’s in plain sight, you may not be looking right?
I feel like a magician, it’s all an illusion a state of confusion putting your focus here, and doing the magic there.
You could never prepare
What did I say??
Something like.. Truth or dare, tempt me, I don’t care, Iv got words that are rare, and “something to spare’.
Thoughts there racing, pause, my letters are losing there spacing
PLAY its okay it’s a new day
Rewind.. What do you find, you can see the words but to the truth you’re blind
I must be a magician, or you just cant follow intuition..

You want to understand me, you never could, I don’t even understand me, maybe you can help me, climb inside my mind tell me what you find that’s if you can survive..
Look real deep into my eyes what do you see, my soul??

My eyes they change it’s rather strange, what did I once say?
Take these words and re – arrange
Look deep into my eyes do you see? Do you see me? Through my eyes, do you see what I disguise?
I probably wouldn’t let you look long enough to get the picture, see the memories
My past enemies

In my blood you will find survival, ambition, you see I follow intuition placed on earth to shock from before my birth
Condom snap, truth and a little more fact, underestimated for years, forced to stand up and shock once I gain courage to face my fears, face these tears

God forgive me, God I am sorry
A descended son, a Disciple of Christ
I failed you once, I failed you twice
Send me to hell if I fail you thrice

My life you chose to save, instead of sending me to my grave
I turned my back on you
Found comfort in evil, you brought me back, u gave me life
For me you still have purpose


God forgive me, God I am sorry
A descended son, a Disciple of Christ
I failed you once, I failed you twice
Send me to hell if I fail you thrice

LIVING IN THIS MOMENT

Caught in this moment
Crawling Spiders , rain spider..
Winter is here, cold rainy nights are near
Been alone is not a fear
I understand that come summer you may no longer be here

I have shed enough tears
I have faced almost all my fears, enough tears to fill fountains for years
Pain that doesn’t kill makes you strong
I am strong, they that think I am weak, they are wrong.
Underestimated yes, the nice guy with a slight sadness in his eye
He deserves someone special, the best, why should I settle, when you could be the best...
Iv heard this all before, so as the rain starts to pour, as winter grows near as winter gets here, keep me warm.
I have never been afraid to put my heart on the line, pain comes an goes, but my strength know one really knows.

So I live for this moment, freeze it, an never forget, never regret

Expecting no more than this moment, no more than today, hoping for tomorrow hoping for one more day, but appreciating yesterday, living in this moment

Hope, faith and love, trusting a god above
Walking by faith, not by sight, time has little significance when its you an I in the darkness of the night
Your feelings you fight, maybe u fear something that feels right
Over analyze, romanticise as I look deep into your eyes
Lost in time, time goes by, this may die
This may not be what you want, what you need
These words I know you’ll read, it’ll confuse, maybe amuse, could even cause this moment to Holt an fuse

Try understand, try comprehend I am not the type to pretend
I live for no more than this moment as I know at any second this can be THE END

Fairytales seldom happen in reality, movies and story books are closer than I to insanity
My world is an alien galaxy; let me show you my reality in your reality

So I leave nothing unsaid I will never look back an dread the thoughts that ran through my head, the thoughts an feelings I wish I had said
It’s to late when it’s dead.

I look up high in the sky , say a prayer, give thanks for this moment , live in this moment , let time stand still, let time fly by, hope this moment goes on forever do not say goodbye , please stay , one more hour one more day, there’s feelings words cannot say
Come see me today, choose to stay, you don’t have to go away
Just for today, just for this moment I expect no more, than this very moment

If today, if yesterday, if tomorrow, was our last day I am thankful for this moment.
I’m thankful for you, thankful to you, these words are true
Yes I’m speaking to someone, I’m speaking to you
We need no label, nothing more than this moment

If together we can make time fly, why should we ever say goodbye?

Alien galaxy

I came from mars, No I came from the stars...
Alien, Star seed, what is my true breed??
A human vessel, no more than a vessel, the truth I seek, the truth I need
Destined for something great, I know this is my fait, searching for my purpose
Lost in this circus, normal I am not, yet grateful for what I have got
I am what I am, it is what it is, I am me..
Searching fulfilling my Destiny..

Taking little for granted, Spirituality something forever implanted, Gods forgiveness I hope it will be granted.
Heavenly gates, Beautiful Silver an Gold, Young at heart yet my mind an soul is old..
Spiritual ointment, Bless me with anointment..
Set me free, to the place I long to be..
Show me the way, immortality I find in Christianity
Help me find clarity in deathly humanity
Thank you for sending me into insanity
To find the truest form of reality
Sent from a place with no gravity, sent from space, sent from Mars
Sent from the stars allow me to shine, till the end of my time.
Blessed with individuality, blessed to go through insanity, to find true spirituality, true clarity; blend out in humanity, blessed with the disease of addiction
Factual I find in fiction, this is my prediction
My fait, is that I am destined for something great,
Dreams they can haunt, Demons may taunt, the past won’t let me forget, I know longer regret
The things they may say, the rumours they spray, ill be the better man an walk away
I may turn the other cheek today, as tomorrow becomes their pain and sorrow
I know my time I borrow, that’s why I take little for granted as I may not see tomorrow
Be the best I can today, accept yesterday, everyday is a new day, another chance, to spiritually enhance.
To be great, the past I will recreate
Sent from a place with no gravity, sent from space, sent from Mars
Sent from the stars allow me to shine, till the end of my vessel time..
Gravity on earth may suck me down, but ill choose to stand up rather than stay down
A sound I found, lifting me up from under the ground
I may be from mars; I may be from the stars, a star seed, another form another breed
Truth and love I need
I try give more than I take, my heart does break I try avoid greed, like a human I bleed in more ways than one
Heavenly father I too am your son
One of your children I am your creation, your crop, your plantation
My purpose here has not yet been done
Creator of the moon an sun, Mars an the stars
As I time travel, as I unravel my form of gravel
I will be great this is my fait
Sent from the Alien galaxy of Christianty
An alien angel from space, sent to earth to find my place, my destiny, my purpose

Truth and love I need
I try give more than I take, my heart does break I try avoid greed, like a human I bleed in more ways than one
Heavenly father I too am your son
One of your children I am your creation, your crop, your plantation
My purpose here has not yet been done
Creator of the moon,stars, Mars and HOLY SON
As I time travel, as I unravel my form of gravel

Be my Rainbow

Words are fascinating to some, and to others mean very little an often none.
I use to have a love for only winter an its rain maybe I felt the coldness numbed my pain
I use to hate summer an its sun
Perhaps been exposed to the sun
I felt vulnerable an less numb
A really strange metaphor
Truthful none the less
Rain is a beautiful metaphor for pain
As is sunshine for happiness after the rain

A rainbow symbolizes an end to the rain
It’s colourful an happy
An is there to let u know sunshine is soon to appear,
Happiness an is near
A rainbow symbolizing the end to the pain felt in the rain

There u were, there you appeared, like a rainbow all your beautiful colours shine
Do you represent the sun after my rain?
The joy after my pain

Red, green, yellow an blue

Years later an here I find you

A red so true symbolising your love that seems so pure
Yellow so bright symbolising the beauty that could be the light in the darkness of the night, the star that shines most bright
Blue representing your rain, your pain, which will never be in vain
Red, yellow an blue these three true colours they make amazingly beautiful you
As these 3 colours blend and mend so beautifully inside they create the final last colour appear
This been green, the most beautiful green I have seen
Gently formed together inside a beauty within shining so beautiful on the out
You see my soul; you make fulfil this dark empty whole you help me find the place of happiness I belong
Beauty inside an out, I don’t want to be wrong I don’t want to doubt
Will you be my sun, that special one
Be the joy after the pain
Be the sunshine after rain

Be my rainbow

Don, Donny, Donovan

DONNY ! DO THIS.. nO DONNY DO THAT!!
Donovan did this , No Donovan did that..
Don said this, no Don said that

Who are you to command me?
When you dont understand me
Who are you to judge me? Who are you to correct me?

Dont you get it , you'll never perfect me..

Don your alone, you talk to yourself more than you do anyone else
No , no, Im SPEAKING TO DONNY, your crazy!!
No Donovan , Don is crazy. .

Am i alone? . .

In this world i do best on my own, best alone..
Maybe i choose to be alone

DONNY ! DO THIS.. nO DONNY DO THAT!!
Donovan did this , No Donovan did that..
Don said this, no Don said that

No it was rap!!!
Don turn that down , stop listening to that crap
what Rap???

Rap?? Rap?? RAP!!!!!

OK let me give you rap!!

Poetry in motion , an emotional explosion, like a magical potion
This is my deadly devotion
DONNY!!!Stop listening to rap!!!!!
STOP MIMICKING THIS STOP MIMICKING THAT??
WACKY WACKO WACK
DON your white stop talking black

So deep. so intense ,thats the rumour?
Donovan decided to add some humour

This is me , and what im meant to be
This is the me i choose to be
Don, Donny, Donovan
Yes im 1, 2 an 3
They all me , all 3.

I seek no approval, no pitty, im cocky im whitty
Im good im bad , often im shitty
Infected by rap?
crap , crap, CRAP!!
Don said this, Donny said that?

Yes it was me, it was us 3

Im this im that, atleast im me , all 3 of me
The 3 iv been chosen to be..
Hate me ? Keep hating!!
Love me ? Ill love you too
Judge me? doesnt budge me!

Self pitty? Make no mistake..
I thrive off pain, ill fall an fail just to rise an come back stronger again
I love the thunder i love the rain

Truth or dare, i dont care
Im me , an thats rarer than rare
IS THAT A WORD

I DONT CARE :)

That boy in the corner , his a transformer

These silly little rhymes , help me an hopefully others get through rough times
DON u need to see a psycoligist to deal with your grief..

This is not healthy, all this hurt and anger inside
Swallow your pride an go express the pain you try so hard to hide
Find someone within who u can confide

SEE A PSYCOLOGIST?
WHAT GETS SAID BETWEEN THESE FOUR WALLS STAYS BETWEEN THESE FOUR WALLS?
AND HOW DOES THAT MAKE U FEEL?

Im gonna pass on that . instead ill put on my life track
Spit the words right here,.. what you think about that??

Im in no need of psycology, This is my Audio biography
The tunes in my head, the words in my invisible pen
Words deep underground , lost an waiting to be found
An imaginary sound, our reality is what we make
Mine will be what i choose to take

My BEST friend died, yes i cried , for a few months i chose to hide
Then i chose to swallow my pride, let the good an bad in me colide
I chose a side, its not only me that lost someone
Its not only my best fried thats gone, A mother lost a son
A brother found his other
A beautful girl lost her one true lover
I am selfish what gives me the right to hide an go undercover?
So this is what i chose to discover

Brendon :Don u need to start a blog
Don : YOU mad bro , go take a jog

Look bro , i finally did, it i started a blog,
More than 25 000 views google adsense , google news :/

Why do i need psycology ?
This is my Audio bigraphy, my form of art, just like your street life photography
Iv got something i wanna say , but ill keep that something personal for another, maybe brighter day.
Skies red,pink blue or grey, ill be okay, your My gaurdian angel you never went away , you with me night an day
Thats why im happy thats why im okay
Ill make you proud, giving up is not optional
Past images pain so graphical, harder to express than a stastistic based mathematical
We only new one number
Best left there under
Sunshine, lightning an thunder
Infinite, forever young this be legit
Never give in, forget how to quit
Justify your faith in me, this is only the start
Blood , brother you live in my heart
Life an death cannot keep our souls apart
This is only the start

This grief , finds relief, ill never be brief, eyes with ambition hidden underneath
Secret message, secret meaning, soul cleansing,comprehending? different vison, different view , different me different you?
No hint , no clue, do this for me do this for you

The truth , couldnt be more true

Losing my mind? hope you dont mind? Losing my mind, enjoying the thrill it takes to find
Im the clarity, in my own reality, im the sane in my insanity, im the vain in my vanity, The disciple of Christianity
The crazy , in crazy, the boy in the corner with not much to say??

That boy in the corner , his a transformer

Im Back!!!

Yes im back

I took a little break, Kitcat!!
I guess i needed some personal space
I left almost closed this blog , i wanted to say my say leave no trace, im back Today!

You no my name , you've heard my pain
Yes iv went insane time and time again..
escaped this reality , only to re -find a better clarity..
Entering a unique spiritual dimension..
My powerful minds invention?
Or was this a blend of heavan an hells invention

My story moulded through heart ache an pain
yet i smile i prevail again an again
You cant defeat me..
You cant beat me, undefeatable, unbreakable , anshakable , i fall ..
At the end ill always stand tall
And you ... Back to your dark whole you'll crawl

The devil paid me a visit once more, 3;33 am , He told me i cant be good
Im no good, im all bad. . .
If i try do good , ill never be happy only sad . .
Look to your past theres a dark cloud that follows you
And no matter the good you do
That darkness will never leave you

I looked his evil in the eye
I said Demon this may be true, but your repuation is only a lie
So now you look me in the eye
Look over hear , watch me spread this verb tear by tear
And note this tear is not that of fear
This tear means i feel , i feel what its like to be real
i feel that it takes pain , discipline an sacrafice to heal
I fear no rain, i fear no pain..
I fear no darkness, no dark cloud..
To me the darkness seems light
your evil i will fight
I will destroy you in your night, burn you with the fire , make you run from the light, in your darkness ill be the light
You can not take my sight , An stop me from doing right.

In my past there may be pain , things iv done wrong, the past is not forgotten an will never be gone
I am punished for my sins everyday , iv lost many, some will never forgive my sins of yesterday..
Yet theres no punishment worse than the past i have to face everyday, Everynight i cant sleep , i cannot erase the page of yesterday
It haunts me, you can taunt me

but i will do good, walk the road i should
live with no regret
I have a righteous debt
This is my destiny

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