Subconscious State

These words I don’t choose to write
Like my dreams, it’s a subconscious state
Just as you to my own thoughts I too relate, dreams we can’t escape
Neither our memories our feelings our subconscious state

Some choose to debate, some out of jealousy start to hate, those that care smile as they understand why I posses this subconscious state, it really is our world to create, art is expression, expression comes in more than one form be creative time to transform, stand out , blend away from the norm

In us all a destiny is born, a purpose & lessons we have yet to learn
Recognition is not what I want to earn
I desire to inspire, within some re – ignite a fire
To lift a little higher, and to those burning extinguish your painful fire
Help you change, your past maybe you need to re – arrange
By starting today, starting a new page
Letting go of great rage, in good the bad can engage
Don’t fear change, don’t fear what’s strange

As I write an enter this subconscious state, I free my hate, I free my crazy state, an emotional alphabetical completely ethical, yet toxic chemical, my crazy wild imagination, flowing across many a nation, a beautiful infiltration, they say Don become a councillor , go see a councillor, to my life an yours im the ring announcer
Hold on, hold on, hold your applause, I need no councillor, my best friend died, go get some grief therapy, fuck that, his death plays role in my destiny
Don your chronically ill, for the rest of your life pop this an that pill
No I have a stronger will
More than 3 years I have not popped a pill
Anti psychotic, lithium to my brain is toxic
Clouded state, I prefer to call it my special subconscious state
Maybe the world does not relate, but check this shit I create
Donny must be crazy, the hit debate, but shit your crazy too because you relate
Some will love some will hate, I walk by faith, talk by faith, live by faith
Believe so great, that what’s meant to be will be, hate me or love me, you can stand on pillars above me, mock me, an shove me, God no matter what will always love me

Thankful for my every struggle, if its in my destiny make it double

You see once you’ve experienced pain so great, that it forever lives in your subconscious state, nightmares almost every night, everyday your mind you fight, an just before night you find the light, then once more the nightmares come and take your sight, once you’ve experienced this pain, there’s no thunder, no hail, no rain, no pain from which you cannot prevail

Stronger than ever , I got to keep it together for now an forever


BELIEVE
SACRAFICE
DISCIPLINE

Relapsing on you

I’ve been procrastinating taking my time
I’ve been contemplating thinking of the perfect line
No letter as fine, words flowing till the end of time could ever describe what it feels like having you by my side; my feelings for you are beyond ocean wide
Goosebumps and shivers run down my spine as I hold your hand in mine
Wake me up I must be dreaming, my soul, your love it is healing

In the dark of the night as I lose sight I find comfort waking up hearing you breathing by my side
Thanks to beautiful you I am no longer alone, I know I wake up grumpy, maybe even moan and groan

Allow me to express the unknown

To wake up with you in my life my world is the best part of my everyday
You the answer to THE prayers pray
When skies turn blue after been grey, that’s a metaphor of the role in my life you play
You really do brighten my every day
I hope the day never comes where we forced to go a separate way
Then once more the sky above will turn grey

Through summer, through winter, through spring
I don’t care I believe what we have is strong enough to conquer anything

A beginning with no end, feelings for you so great you may never comprehend
With me ill never pretend, I don’t need to blend, I want to be your Lover, BUT I also want to be your best friend

These words I type backspace, erase, not good enough for you, so unfulfilling, id tear it up a 1000 times if it wasn’t digital and instead written on a page
Maybe I was a bird trapped in a cage, unhappy till you set me free
You in my life was written in my destiny
I prayed many nights for you, I’m so happy I found you
Caleche, you’re making my dreams come true
The nightmares slowly fade, nightmares from my past I use to re live in my dreams
A place with no escape, my subconscious state, but now when I wake
I no longer tremble, I no longer shake, I wake up knowing I am not alone
Ones past we cannot erase, but every day with you is a new page
Its hard to forget yesterday, but today I recreate the past of yesterday
Memories with you like movie scenes, flashing smiles, I wish I could tell you how much this means

I wish I could express exactly what it is I feel, but I want you to know with you I can definitely distinguish what is real an the way I feel for you is beyond real, a feeling I could never control, you free my soul, growing stronger an stronger, a new kind of drug, it must be your love, you call me your love, but iv cross addicted crazy to you, always high on you, an when I Am not with you I seriously withdraw they call this cold turkey, but your the only cure for me
So I relapse, relapse on you I feel amazing no longer sad, no longer grey, no longer blue
I’m high because I found you

I am falling deeper an deeper, maybe starting to drown, then you lift me up before I touch the ground, you give me oxygen , I breathe in this purified air, you let me know your there, you let me know you care, I get lost in your eyes I start to stare, the world around I couldn’t care, all that matters is you’re here , you’re there, making my world go round, picking me up from underground, your heartbeat, my heartbeat on repeat, the softest most beautiful sound

I was trapped I was lost, thanks to you I’m found