Wednesday 21 May 2014

Unrestricted, Limitless

I think I am soul searching, the past I am deserting
I am no longer hurting, parts of me are just dead, and they have died
Washed away with all the tears I cried, wont let nothing breaks my stride

I shouldn’t run or try hide, the deadly evil inside, send the darkness to the light
Let the good and evil fight, God made stars to give the darkness light, he gave oxygen to fuel life.

Let my soul be pure, through you I find a cure
You heal the broken heart; u put back together what’s been ripped apart
U determine the end before the start, I am your form of art.

Your design, an image of man, a image of you, a image so true

Going off the topic, going slightly psychotic, hypnotic you think you’ve got it?
Entering this spiritual reality, eyes opened through insanity, like dogs see only in black and white, I am gifted with another form of sight
Maybe a third eye, truth no lie, I see what’s wrong I see what’s right
I see the true evil in the night, I choose to fight for what’s right
I face evil demons in your dreams at night
An make sure they disappear before light, burn by the light of day

Accepted a reality of insanity, good an evil spirits, lost trying to find their way
For them I pray night and day
I think I am soul searching, the past I am deserting
I am no longer hurting, parts of me are just dead, and they have died
Washed away with all the tears I cried, wont let nothing breaks my stride

Pick it up, pick it up, Time to take this to the next level
Some will say I did great, some will say I changed my own fait
Jealousy will cause some to hate
Some will say Don you did swell, you’ve done well
You dug your way out of hell
You stood up after you fell

Truth be told I am not nearly there, haters best prepare, best beware
Life is not always fair, but u can either sit there, or you can stand up an keep fighting Don don’t stop writing, through thunder rain, hail an lightning
Don’t ever give up, don’t ever stop fighting
You see when you do what you do for something greater than you
There are no boundaries no limits
Today 21 tomorrow day 22 , DJ ill be thinking of you
Not mourning, as for you to I am performing
Time to step it up, I am never going to be satisfied with just good enough
You never could be, and I never would be
All my life criticised, underestimated, judged, told id be an under achiever
All my life a giver never receiver
A donor, not a bleeder
I AM A BELIEVER
An under dog underground, softly spoken
Was lost, guess what.. I am found
In silence I find sound
They know not what inside me as been awoken
I want to thank you for the token
An inspiring a light inside me to slowly re build an fix what’s been broken
My desire is to inspire and lift souls higher
To ignite a fire, an show you the difference between Truth an a liar
Nothing is impossible, you were all wrong about me
You who chose to doubt me are now without me
But thank you your hate to is what helped me

Pick up; pick it up, next level
This is only the start
Ambition and more forever in my blood forever in my heart









Monday 19 May 2014

Purity vs Security

Just when I gave up, just when I completely let go, u decided to show
Why have you chosen to re – appear, fighting this year after year, a pain so strong that I thought would never leave never be gone
Are you my weakness??
Have you come back to heal me of this bleakness
Should I give in, or should I keep this

I have no idea what I should do
My heart, should I close or open for you
Do you posses a love that’s true?

Should I re-visit the past, fix what left me broken, an this time try make happiness last
Lost between securities and insecurity what should I choose, what might I lose?
What may I gain?
Nothings the same, I have guilt I have shame, I am the only one to blame
I have changed, was this needed for you to come back again
My mind you officially confuse, what should I choose
Purity or security?
You offer me safety and security
Yet I feel I want purity
This is all so unclear to me, does this belong here with me
Within purity I may never find security, but every minute feels like the cure for me

Why now, after years of pain, do u find me standing alone in the rain an open your arms for me again?
Once more, what for?
My heart between two it has been tore

They say Don leave the past in the past that is where it will always belong
You have moved on , right here is where you belong
But what happens when my past suddenly comes knocking on my door
And asks to come inside, and says Don lets go for a ride
We need to talk, we took a long walk
We went our separate ways, we experienced better days
But alone like two lost strays
Two lost souls, there’s a part forever alone, missing singular, sole, u posses what makes me whole
The days are starting to take its toll
A dark art, a dark part of my heart, give it back, let’s go back to the start

Iv come so far, came out the dark , shining like a star, finding purity in my soul
Purity making me hole, purity pulling me out that whole
Taking my bleakness accepting my weakness
I think I should keep this, I think I should stay
I think you should go the fuck away; purity may not be here to stay
Yet is here today, taking all my pain away, treating me the kind of way
I never felt I deserve or would ever receive, in purity I believe
Purity may not give me the security you place on the table
But in been pure, I find cure, I find happiness I never felt I deserve, never felt id find
And to choose security over purity would mean I am really blind.

Underground

Struggles come, struggles go, this I already know
After struggles survival is one of many things we have to show
I know that I am born to survive, meant to be alive, and forever strive
I am not meant to hide, World wide, I’m on the other side, of the ocean tide
Should I send a message in a bottle, I’m going full throttle, at times I run out of fuel
Forgetting how to give up this been my hidden rule
Born to succeed, never taking more than I need, truth is off what I feed
Truth I seek, the truth I speak, blessed to be different, blessed unique
Lucky am I ?
They say, hey who’s that guy?
What guy?
The guy with the scar below his eye
I don’t know why?
His leaving, oh okay Goodbye
Guy with the scar under your eye
My presence made an impression
You wanted to know my story
In my pain you found glory
My surroundings started to bore me
This world is not for me
Something still in store for me
Glasses of life please pour for me

I am awake to my every mistake, in my Dreams I cant help re visit maybe re live what makes my heart break, a subconscious state of which many can relate
Dreams and their meanings forever we debate
In this life we find love we find hate, sometimes very hard to differentiate
Love can turn to a state of hate
Hate can turn to something great
Channelled emotions, channelled pain, never in vain
Let’s be cleansed by the purest rain
Blood turned rain, happiness found after pain
Pride after shame, innocence after blame
You need to be wild to be tamed
And born to be named
All rhetorical, problems can be psychological
FAILURE is not optional
Dinosaurs philosophical, found hidden in a past time
Like this rhyme , underground, buried to be discovered in another lifetime

Thursday 15 May 2014

D.O.C

Words could never describe this feeling inside
The pain I hide within my pride, I thought I found someone within who I could confide
I am thankful as it was one amazing ride , I guess its high tide, to deep I drowned she frowned when she saw my other side, the side I try so hard to hide.

Sometimes the hardest thing can be holding back these tears..
I guess I am rather damaged from my past years
DROP a tear, wipe away the tear stand up, face this fear.
Maybe best alone, don’t come near, just stay away, leave me here
Life goes on iv done wrong, I cant change this, accept an just move on

Run an never look back, keep running, leave this place, lost in space, leave without a trace
Where will I go, where am I meant to be, hand me this key, show me my destiny
Guilty I plead, I am so sorry, they say Don don’t worry , everything will be okay ..
You don’t know, you never will, you never have..
Where will this road go, high or down low, life an death , final breath
Hard to digest, what is right before your eyes, hidden in disguise in these words a life sentence I serve?

Look deep, it’s eating me inside, actions so toxic I can no longer hide, look really deep
Look real close, find my key, and unlock it,
I JUST CAN’T STOP IT.
Put a gun to my head ill ask u to cock it
I got so many triggers; I guess its something mental, forever resentful
Trigger my anger in motion; figure I need some kind of magic potion
Before this all turns into a nuclear explosion

Climb into my mind, climb into my brain within seconds you’d be insane, you have no idea what I deal with day by day, try see through my eyes, my vision ,Insanity is my everyday reality, there’s so many things words could never say.

I pray every single day, that my sanity is here to stay, I fight my thoughts day in day out, inside my emotions they scream they shout, running completely wild inside, I hide this in my pride, the person I see in the mirror is the only one within who I can really confide, he knows all my secrets, he knows all my shame, he knows what’s going on in my brain,
God lives in me, God shines through me, but man ate from the forbidden tree, so evil to lives in me.
The truth will set me free?

..Maybe hidden in disguise, behind every letter behind every phrase, a hidden truth, page after page, some written in moments of rage, moments of depression, channelled aggression, hard to make sense??
My thoughts they racing at the speed of light, sometimes its hard to see what’s in plain sight, you may not be looking right?
I feel like a magician, it’s all an illusion a state of confusion putting your focus here, and doing the magic there.
You could never prepare
What did I say??
Something like.. Truth or dare, tempt me, I don’t care, Iv got words that are rare, and “something to spare’.
Thoughts there racing, pause, my letters are losing there spacing
PLAY its okay it’s a new day
Rewind.. What do you find, you can see the words but to the truth you’re blind
I must be a magician, or you just cant follow intuition..

You want to understand me, you never could, I don’t even understand me, maybe you can help me, climb inside my mind tell me what you find that’s if you can survive..
Look real deep into my eyes what do you see, my soul??

My eyes they change it’s rather strange, what did I once say?
Take these words and re – arrange
Look deep into my eyes do you see? Do you see me? Through my eyes, do you see what I disguise?
I probably wouldn’t let you look long enough to get the picture, see the memories
My past enemies

In my blood you will find survival, ambition, you see I follow intuition placed on earth to shock from before my birth
Condom snap, truth and a little more fact, underestimated for years, forced to stand up and shock once I gain courage to face my fears, face these tears

God forgive me, God I am sorry
A descended son, a Disciple of Christ
I failed you once, I failed you twice
Send me to hell if I fail you thrice

My life you chose to save, instead of sending me to my grave
I turned my back on you
Found comfort in evil, you brought me back, u gave me life
For me you still have purpose


God forgive me, God I am sorry
A descended son, a Disciple of Christ
I failed you once, I failed you twice
Send me to hell if I fail you thrice





Thursday 8 May 2014

LIVING IN THIS MOMENT

Caught in this moment
Crawling Spiders , rain spider..
Winter is here, cold rainy nights are near
Been alone is not a fear
I understand that come summer you may no longer be here

I have shed enough tears
I have faced almost all my fears, enough tears to fill fountains for years
Pain that doesn’t kill makes you strong
I am strong, they that think I am weak, they are wrong.
Underestimated yes, the nice guy with a slight sadness in his eye
He deserves someone special, the best, why should I settle, when you could be the best...
Iv heard this all before, so as the rain starts to pour, as winter grows near as winter gets here, keep me warm.
I have never been afraid to put my heart on the line, pain comes an goes, but my strength know one really knows.

So I live for this moment, freeze it, an never forget, never regret

Expecting no more than this moment, no more than today, hoping for tomorrow hoping for one more day, but appreciating yesterday, living in this moment

Hope, faith and love, trusting a god above
Walking by faith, not by sight, time has little significance when its you an I in the darkness of the night
Your feelings you fight, maybe u fear something that feels right
Over analyze, romanticise as I look deep into your eyes
Lost in time, time goes by, this may die
This may not be what you want, what you need
These words I know you’ll read, it’ll confuse, maybe amuse, could even cause this moment to Holt an fuse

Try understand, try comprehend I am not the type to pretend
I live for no more than this moment as I know at any second this can be THE END

Fairytales seldom happen in reality, movies and story books are closer than I to insanity
My world is an alien galaxy; let me show you my reality in your reality

So I leave nothing unsaid I will never look back an dread the thoughts that ran through my head, the thoughts an feelings I wish I had said
It’s to late when it’s dead.

I look up high in the sky , say a prayer, give thanks for this moment , live in this moment , let time stand still, let time fly by, hope this moment goes on forever do not say goodbye , please stay , one more hour one more day, there’s feelings words cannot say
Come see me today, choose to stay, you don’t have to go away
Just for today, just for this moment I expect no more, than this very moment

If today, if yesterday, if tomorrow, was our last day I am thankful for this moment.
I’m thankful for you, thankful to you, these words are true
Yes I’m speaking to someone, I’m speaking to you
We need no label, nothing more than this moment

If together we can make time fly, why should we ever say goodbye?






Monday 5 May 2014

Alien galaxy

I came from mars, No I came from the stars...
Alien, Star seed, what is my true breed??
A human vessel, no more than a vessel, the truth I seek, the truth I need
Destined for something great, I know this is my fait, searching for my purpose
Lost in this circus, normal I am not, yet grateful for what I have got
I am what I am, it is what it is, I am me..
Searching fulfilling my Destiny..

Taking little for granted, Spirituality something forever implanted, Gods forgiveness I hope it will be granted.
Heavenly gates, Beautiful Silver an Gold, Young at heart yet my mind an soul is old..
Spiritual ointment, Bless me with anointment..
Set me free, to the place I long to be..
Show me the way, immortality I find in Christianity
Help me find clarity in deathly humanity
Thank you for sending me into insanity
To find the truest form of reality
Sent from a place with no gravity, sent from space, sent from Mars
Sent from the stars allow me to shine, till the end of my time.
Blessed with individuality, blessed to go through insanity, to find true spirituality, true clarity; blend out in humanity, blessed with the disease of addiction
Factual I find in fiction, this is my prediction
My fait, is that I am destined for something great,
Dreams they can haunt, Demons may taunt, the past won’t let me forget, I know longer regret
The things they may say, the rumours they spray, ill be the better man an walk away
I may turn the other cheek today, as tomorrow becomes their pain and sorrow
I know my time I borrow, that’s why I take little for granted as I may not see tomorrow
Be the best I can today, accept yesterday, everyday is a new day, another chance, to spiritually enhance.
To be great, the past I will recreate
Sent from a place with no gravity, sent from space, sent from Mars
Sent from the stars allow me to shine, till the end of my vessel time..
Gravity on earth may suck me down, but ill choose to stand up rather than stay down
A sound I found, lifting me up from under the ground
I may be from mars; I may be from the stars, a star seed, another form another breed
Truth and love I need
I try give more than I take, my heart does break I try avoid greed, like a human I bleed in more ways than one
Heavenly father I too am your son
One of your children I am your creation, your crop, your plantation
My purpose here has not yet been done
Creator of the moon an sun, Mars an the stars
As I time travel, as I unravel my form of gravel
I will be great this is my fait
Sent from the Alien galaxy of Christianty
An alien angel from space, sent to earth to find my place, my destiny, my purpose

Truth and love I need
I try give more than I take, my heart does break I try avoid greed, like a human I bleed in more ways than one
Heavenly father I too am your son
One of your children I am your creation, your crop, your plantation
My purpose here has not yet been done
Creator of the moon,stars, Mars and HOLY SON
As I time travel, as I unravel my form of gravel