Honestly why can I not stop missing you subconsciously, everywhere I go it seems your haunting me.
Your presence, your memories like drugs they forever taunting me.
In my dreams I swear your haunting me, like a relapse you’re taunting me.
You’re not even trying, but some days without you it feels as though im emotionally dying.
You no longer care, you no longer here, life without you is close to my greatest fear.
You’ve left me with this pain, you left me with your love running through my every vain
You left me thinking of you every moment it starts to rain.
You left me at my weakest you left me when I literally went insane.
An even though don managed to come back again...
You never will, you can’t stand the thought of me, the sight of me...
Feels as though u fear me, I guess you hate me, I guess I can’t blame you.
I guess your right I no longer know you; maybe I no longer love you.
You’re no longer the girl I once new, as this girl is not you… but somewhere deep inside she lives in you.
An unfortunately for me ill always believe in you... Maybe this is just a psychotic obsession, causing never ending depression..
I guess your love taught me a valuable lesson…
The person that you love most can chew you up an spit you out, leave you forever living in doubt, I ask myself is this really what true love is about.
People tell me that your far from the girl I once knew , people tell me they don’t know what’s happened to you, an that I am a now a level above you, but in my thoughts I respond .. I still love you.
Im clean. Im sane. no longer on medication no longer living a life of procrastination.
I live a good life, yet it feels empty without you, no words could ever be more true.
Iv let go of all my pride, these feelings I once tried so hard to hide... im exposing them one by one , I wish I could go back to those moments when we were both young , those times we shared were so fun, ill never stop believing you were the one.
Iv allowed myself to appear vulnerable, to so many im sure I look weak an they don’t want to hear these words I speak, these emotions I write, but truth is I love you and you’re the only one that gives me the strength to put up a fight against the darkness of the night until the sun comes out and I get to see the light.
I know you wish id just forget you, an like you do me, start to regret you.
Truth is I could never ever forget you , as you’ve asked I will stay away yet pray for a day, a day where I get to hear you say , everything will be okay , a day where you’ll return an never again go away..
You no longer here, you no longer care, u left me with an everlasting tear, life without you is close to my greatest fear.
Im here, I care, you’re worth this tear, and for you ill keep facing this fear.
Im always here.
Id do anything for one last chance
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