Enough to last forever

Out of every word I have ever written, out of every rhyming feeling…

Tonight as I lay awake staring above at the ceiling, saying a prayer..

Telling god this is not fair, this thought I cannot bare, these feelings are the hardest to share…

The thought of been without u has brought me many tears over the past few years..

To tell the truth with or without you, you gave me the strength to face my fears

U see, I truly believed we were meant to be…

I can imagine that what happened to me in 2007 2010 an 2011 could be part of the reason you’re staying away …

I cant explain 2 u how much my life changed 2007 April 17 the very 1st day..

I was confused, because of the amount of drugs I abused, something in my mind fused..

I lost my mind.. 4 months is what It took to find…

Sometimes in life I wish u could push play, pause an rewind…

Id go back to the day I met you, I hope u wont mind:)

In you, I had It all, you were always there to catch me when I was about to fall..

I know you’ve moved on with your life, I can tell u know there is a guy out there that is going to have the most amazing wifeJ…

U once asked me how will it benefit me to see u , an tonight I realised that’s just it ..

How could I be so full of shit ... love is not about one, but two...

And seen me would sadly not benefit you …

I guess iv said this is the last, but I never seem to manage to forget the past...

But tonight I came to this realisation... I was lucky enough to spend time with you, in my eyes gods greatest creation..

Maybe one day you’ll think of me, realise u were my great love an hold a key ..

A key to my heart .., even though we apart..

Maybe ull try contact me that day... until then if that day is ever to come I will stay away…

These words I othe to try obey

Anyway I guess what’s most important is what im about to say... Every night in my bed id lay... Every night to the lord id pray... Hoping you’d come back to me some day...

I could never give up on you... When I told u id love you forever those words were true...

You deserve the best, u have a heart of gold, I see beyond your disguise... I apologise for all my lies...I’m speaking to you the amazing girl that I see when I look into your eyes ...

When I went to rehab I told u you’d be my motivation. No more procrastination...

I turned my life around im clean.. Im reaching places iv never been ..

I hope that life brings u the happiness u deserve... And I want u to know u strong enough to get through that moment when life throws u a curve…

Ur special, your rare, im not around but ill always care

So I guess this is my final few words …

Every moment we shared together, is more than enough to last me forever...