Sweetdreams and goodnight

So many times iv reached out to you
So many nights I dream about you
My heart forces me to cry out to you
My heart forces me to try fight for you

I fight , an fight .. Where is the light?? .. Ur out of site , I can only find u when I close my eyes in the dark of the night, please wake me , turn on the light..
These dreams in colour not like these words in black and white.. To reach out to u seems so wrong, but in my dreams it all feels right.. in my dreams u don't belong ..
the nights never seem long , the saddest part is when I open my eyes, ur no longer there , ur gone.

The days go by so slow , fighting my thoughts, telling myself I need to let go, why are u the only love I know..
Why won't my subconscious mind let u go..

I can't help contradict what I feel, some dreams u can make come true, an some are not up to you.

I know these words are to be judged, with tears they cannot be smudged, they cannot be erased, I don't live to be praised, I live to be me, my true self.. Accept me or reject me,my grammer an puncuation, u can correct me, but opinions will never affect me.

Its so hard to show composure, when I cannot find closure, ..no matter the pain ,an moments of going insane , knowing you'll never come back again, truth is I still vision u when it starts to rain.

These are the only emotions I cannot control, its starting to take its toll, dreams don't come true , I know that thanks to you .. I could never blame you, I just need to force myself to give up the fight, close my eyes an say goodnight, an hope that someone can find me,by turning on the light. Sweet dreams an goodnight ;-)

If I die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take