Remorse

I know you'll never give me a chance to apologise,I wish you were here in person to see the remorse in my eyes, I'm sorry for all the tears I caused to run from your eyes, I'm sorry for more than a 1000 goodbyes, I know you don't want this apology nor care , but I do owe you this apology, I studied your body next to me in physiology, now that you know I'm talking to you, I wanna apologise for all I put u through, I guess I have no clue what I put you through, maybe I do , but with this these words could never be true , I refused to let go, even though today I realise u were right, we better of not speaking, not seen each other, we were no longer good for each other,this just took longer for me to discover.

You were always right, even when u were wrong u were right, I never realised that then that's why we'd always fight, I could not let go because you were the only love I'd ever know.. I couldn't let go of the love we had those many years ago, years have gone by, yet I couldn't help ask myself why, why did a 'love' so special just fade away an die..
So I turned into that guy , the guy looking back with regret, the guys hung up, hung up on you, so hung up I basically stalked you..
Reached out to you, would literally have given my life to you, my world to you for one more chance with you..
This was so unfair , as u shouldn't feel bad that you no longer care, I had no right to be angry an sad that u were no longer there..
Losing you was a feeling for which I could not prepare.
We were so young , those feelings an words u chose to share ..
To believe it was real love an hold you to that was not fair
U were right, it was only infatuation ..
I no longer loved you, I loved the idea of what we once had..
Its over now an iv realised that its just a case of 'to bad'
U snooze you loose ..
U drink to much , u hit the booze, u take for granted , what someone else is praying for ..
An later u think your heart is sore, this is me I speak of , I should have let go years ago, something wouldn't let me I was selfish, I know..
I'm truly sorry goodbye , u can go..