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Today is the day
That I express an find the strength for the words iv so longed to say
This one is for you Annie
Not a day goes by, that I do not think of the tears you have been forced to cry
I know that growing up for you it was extremely tough
You entered this world, a blessing a beautiful girl
I looked over the seat, the day we would first meet, I can still remember
U rapped in a white towel, in the parking lot, a little sister I have got
In February in 1993 you opened your eyes , the world you started to see
One of your first visions your big brother, ,me
When I was in rehab, I received a letter, one of collateral damage iv caused you
Only then did I realise what my actions had put you through
A pain like that, tears of shame, guilt an blame, were resting heavy on my name
I cried , turned to the corner, as your words were read aloud, I tried to hide, it broke my pride
Every word based on pain my addiction had caused in your life, every word to my gut a different knife
NEVER have I felt so small in my life
Every word was true, so selfish that till that moment I never understood what you were going through
I never could gain the strength to tell you
So I told myself I would show you
No matter what it is I have to go through, I will show you how sorry I am
I know I can, and one day write you this rhyme, on my own time
You visited me a little while later, You entered the rehab, I can still remember your beautiful face coming through that green gate
I was in another state, myself I really did hate, tears I cried once more
I bet you never knew what for
I walked past Mom an Dad, held you tight, never felt so much love in my life, as though I was blind an in this moment I found sight
I decided to do what was right, stand up an fight
COME BACK
Be a brother that you can be proud of , a brother like no other, When we were young I protected you like a father a Mother, You were my one an only little sister, I new id never have another
I am so sorry for all the pain iv caused, im so sorry for all you had to go through
I know that I only play a small part of the pain in your heart, I know you’ve had it so hard right from the start, I always tried to protect you, never neglect you, I always have an always will stick out my neck for you
I love you, forever you and I no mountains to high, one day we can fly to the sky we have overcome so much together, an still will forever
Not only do I want to apologise for me, but for everything you have had to endure
Love can be a cure, its made you the amazing person you are today
I promise you , you will be okay, and your brother loves you and is here for you every day, I know you understand what im trying to say
I want to thank you
For always believing in me, when there was a time I didn’t believe in myself
Words ill never forget you said
Even though you lost your mind, you will always be my hero
You told me this when I was at zero
I LOVE YOU
So this is my apology, Words can live forever, mental picture , photography
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