Its Hard To Explain

Haven’t posted for a whee whee little while
Time to unleash this style, quik fix, bust a freestyle

Hmmm which one was coming soon I cant remember
Today marks the 22nd Septemeber, , guess the shit I cant help but remember

You died today, 21 Months have gone and flown away
Gets more real day by day
Pray for the pain to go away, then pray for this physical emotional feeling to stay
Maybe addicted to the pain, to the feeling. Somehow still healing , time to start revealing

Yes I remember, 22nd September 22 nd December

THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

I stood up, never shed a tear, overcame this fear,im still standing here
tried to explain how I went insane
How I find my way back again, but I can explain again and again, its all in vain, its still the same, its still hard to explain, please take me out this rain, show me this is not in vain

GOD HEAR ME
GOD HELP ME
GOD DON’T JUDGE ME
GOD SAVE ME

LEAD ME NOT INTO TEMPTATION
GUIDE ME THROUGH EVIL

HELP ME ACHIEVE WHAT I BELIEVE
CURE THESE SCARS, CURE THESE WOUNDS
I DON’T WANT TO BLEED
GOD GIVE ME WHAT I NEED TO SUCCEED
Give me no more than I need
BUT LET ME GIVE THOSE AROUND ME , THE BEST OF ME

I WANT TO GIVE HER EVERYTHING, ALL OF ME, I WANT HER TO BE MY DESTINY, I WANT HER TO ALWAYS BE PROUD OF ME, HAPPY WITH ME, LOVE ME FOR ME, STAND BY ME , I WANT HER TO BE MY MEANT TO BE
IF YOUR WILL COULD GIVE THIS TO ME
DON’T LET ME FAIL, HELP ME PREVAIL
OCEANS I WANT TO SAIL
BE IT THROUGH STORMS OF HAIL,WITH A HEAVY SCALE
A BROKEN NAIL,A GIVEN TAIL,A BROKEN WING, I WILL FLY
EAGLE SKY
SET ME FREE HELP ME FIND THE THE PLACE I LONG TO BE
GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AN GUIDENCE TO HELP MAKE HER EVERY DREAM COME TRUE, ILL SACRAFICE ALL OF ME FOR THIS TO BE
I WANT TO MAKE MY DAD PROUD, AND NEVER STOP MAKING HIM PROUD
I WANT TO MAKE My MOM SMILE, KNOWING HER SON BECAME ONE!!

I WANT TO FULFILL A GREATER PURPOSE, PAINT MY PORTRAIT A SPECIAL WAY, YOUR HOLY WAY, I LIVE FOR THIS DAY

I WANT THOSE THAT KNOW ME TO REMEMBER ME FOR ME, AND WHO I CHOSE TO BE
A Disciple Of Christ , a D.O.C
AND TO NEVER FORGET ME
DONNY
DONOVAN
OR DON

LET THEM BE HAPPY THEY NEW ME WHEN IM GONE

I want them to remember my song
The rise and the fall
The survivor through it all

Its hard to explain, but the ambition in my vain
Is what keeps me coming back again

Sane or insane
Wild or tame
Humble or vain
No more than a name
Don’t care for fame
Mental toughness in my brain
Hard to explain
But im back again
Faith and rain