Love & Lust Part 2

Is this love is this lust, the flames burnt & left coal and dust

First I chose to thrust , the sweat & heat I found in lust

Mistaking a heartbreaking for love

Love is not blind, I disagree, true love you can see, when its love you really find

When you know you know , watch true love grow, a short horrible description of lust is soon to follow, a ‘love’ that left me hollow
A love that was blind, a love that was not real, unfortunately these words I regret to reveal, but even words of hate they heal, better this way than another day, I am sorry for the words I am about to lay, but even "angels have their wicked wings"

Funny how things change

I no longer find it strange

Time to serve the verb, the word you most deserve

LUST

LUST??? Lussssssst??? Ye I said Lust !!

SLUT

The sound of your name makes me sick to my gut
Read part one, we done

Long gone, Bicycle, YOU the shit I chose to recycle
Chew you up spit you out, I know what you’re all about

Bicycle you’re the definition of a bitch insane on her pre menstrual cycle
Pms , Every day you’re the shit I digest

I’m so sorry, I try never express hate, but they say there’s a thin line and once you cross its to late

Time to stand up, iv had enough, to think I defended you
After all you put me through, after all I done for you
I Regret You !!

So glad you were never my first, that shit would now be the worst, a form of shame, you try bringing down my name?
Is it cause your bitter, pre menstrual cycle insane?
You can’t stand ill never be yours again?

I moved on, Bitch im happy you gone
Thanks for setting me free, it allowed me to open my eyes an see
You never were good for me, you never where good to me
You thought you destroyed me, haha you like a fly, all you can do is annoy me
A germ, Go crawl back where you came from you dirty worm
Go eat some more sperm, an maybe one day you’ll learn
RESPECT is something you earn

You got a grudge??
Did I break your little heart?
So you thought you’d get revenge, try ripping mine apart
By spreading hateful words as your form of art

Let me tell you a little secret, let me expose your own weakness
The SHIT you spray, the shit you say about me, they way u try make others doubt me
Keep doing it proudly, it makes one true vision of you not so cloudy
So get roudy, like a cow girl howdy
Be that bicycle, you im glad I chose to recycle, I don’t mean to be spiteful
But the truth is what you may need , fuck im glad I never planted my seed, here is my good deed, giving u the truth u need.


You see we can turn the other cheek, choose the words we speak, rise above the ones that hate, I do choose to give love to those that relate and try not express words of hate, I guess now and then maybe I enter some kind of antibiotic, detox the evil, psychotic, mental state, these words above are overdue and late, overdue yet serving them to you

And as for love, I know you’ve been sent from above
In you I find grace
My happy place
The love that keeps giving no matter my past , no matter the scars on my face
Our love has no gravity when I look into your eyes im lost in space
You are the one, you have taught me the true meaning of not only how to love, but what it feels like to be truly loved

So Corinthians 13 , Faith , Hope & Love

I have faith in what we share
Hope that your love will always be there
I appreciate that you truly care
Life is not always fair, but with your love their, with our love in the air
Nothing in this world could ever compare, I forgot lust, clean & serene for more than 3 years, purified, let go of my pride, came out from where I chose to hide, in love I chose to confide, of all the gifts God chose love as the greatest sent to the human race from above

You are the greatest gift, I found love, I found grace, I found my Angel sent from heavens Space

Its Hard To Explain

Haven’t posted for a whee whee little while
Time to unleash this style, quik fix, bust a freestyle

Hmmm which one was coming soon I cant remember
Today marks the 22nd Septemeber, , guess the shit I cant help but remember

You died today, 21 Months have gone and flown away
Gets more real day by day
Pray for the pain to go away, then pray for this physical emotional feeling to stay
Maybe addicted to the pain, to the feeling. Somehow still healing , time to start revealing

Yes I remember, 22nd September 22 nd December

THIS IS HARD TO EXPLAIN

I stood up, never shed a tear, overcame this fear,im still standing here
tried to explain how I went insane
How I find my way back again, but I can explain again and again, its all in vain, its still the same, its still hard to explain, please take me out this rain, show me this is not in vain

GOD HEAR ME
GOD HELP ME
GOD DON’T JUDGE ME
GOD SAVE ME

LEAD ME NOT INTO TEMPTATION
GUIDE ME THROUGH EVIL

HELP ME ACHIEVE WHAT I BELIEVE
CURE THESE SCARS, CURE THESE WOUNDS
I DON’T WANT TO BLEED
GOD GIVE ME WHAT I NEED TO SUCCEED
Give me no more than I need
BUT LET ME GIVE THOSE AROUND ME , THE BEST OF ME

I WANT TO GIVE HER EVERYTHING, ALL OF ME, I WANT HER TO BE MY DESTINY, I WANT HER TO ALWAYS BE PROUD OF ME, HAPPY WITH ME, LOVE ME FOR ME, STAND BY ME , I WANT HER TO BE MY MEANT TO BE
IF YOUR WILL COULD GIVE THIS TO ME
DON’T LET ME FAIL, HELP ME PREVAIL
OCEANS I WANT TO SAIL
BE IT THROUGH STORMS OF HAIL,WITH A HEAVY SCALE
A BROKEN NAIL,A GIVEN TAIL,A BROKEN WING, I WILL FLY
EAGLE SKY
SET ME FREE HELP ME FIND THE THE PLACE I LONG TO BE
GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AN GUIDENCE TO HELP MAKE HER EVERY DREAM COME TRUE, ILL SACRAFICE ALL OF ME FOR THIS TO BE
I WANT TO MAKE MY DAD PROUD, AND NEVER STOP MAKING HIM PROUD
I WANT TO MAKE My MOM SMILE, KNOWING HER SON BECAME ONE!!

I WANT TO FULFILL A GREATER PURPOSE, PAINT MY PORTRAIT A SPECIAL WAY, YOUR HOLY WAY, I LIVE FOR THIS DAY

I WANT THOSE THAT KNOW ME TO REMEMBER ME FOR ME, AND WHO I CHOSE TO BE
A Disciple Of Christ , a D.O.C
AND TO NEVER FORGET ME
DONNY
DONOVAN
OR DON

LET THEM BE HAPPY THEY NEW ME WHEN IM GONE

I want them to remember my song
The rise and the fall
The survivor through it all

Its hard to explain, but the ambition in my vain
Is what keeps me coming back again

Sane or insane
Wild or tame
Humble or vain
No more than a name
Don’t care for fame
Mental toughness in my brain
Hard to explain
But im back again
Faith and rain

My Sincere Apology

This is my sincere apology
Take a mental picture , words too can be like photography
Visualise this image, hidden in every phrase, letters to you on this page
Today is the day
That I express an find the strength for the words iv so longed to say

This one is for you Annie

Not a day goes by, that I do not think of the tears you have been forced to cry
I know that growing up for you it was extremely tough

You entered this world, a blessing a beautiful girl

I looked over the seat, the day we would first meet, I can still remember
U rapped in a white towel, in the parking lot, a little sister I have got

In February in 1993 you opened your eyes , the world you started to see
One of your first visions your big brother, ,me

When I was in rehab, I received a letter, one of collateral damage iv caused you
Only then did I realise what my actions had put you through
A pain like that, tears of shame, guilt an blame, were resting heavy on my name

I cried , turned to the corner, as your words were read aloud, I tried to hide, it broke my pride

Every word based on pain my addiction had caused in your life, every word to my gut a different knife
NEVER have I felt so small in my life

Every word was true, so selfish that till that moment I never understood what you were going through
I never could gain the strength to tell you
So I told myself I would show you
No matter what it is I have to go through, I will show you how sorry I am
I know I can, and one day write you this rhyme, on my own time

You visited me a little while later, You entered the rehab, I can still remember your beautiful face coming through that green gate

I was in another state, myself I really did hate, tears I cried once more
I bet you never knew what for

I walked past Mom an Dad, held you tight, never felt so much love in my life, as though I was blind an in this moment I found sight

I decided to do what was right, stand up an fight
COME BACK

Be a brother that you can be proud of , a brother like no other, When we were young I protected you like a father a Mother, You were my one an only little sister, I new id never have another

I am so sorry for all the pain iv caused, im so sorry for all you had to go through

I know that I only play a small part of the pain in your heart, I know you’ve had it so hard right from the start, I always tried to protect you, never neglect you, I always have an always will stick out my neck for you

I love you, forever you and I no mountains to high, one day we can fly to the sky we have overcome so much together, an still will forever

Not only do I want to apologise for me, but for everything you have had to endure
Love can be a cure, its made you the amazing person you are today

I promise you , you will be okay, and your brother loves you and is here for you every day, I know you understand what im trying to say

I want to thank you
For always believing in me, when there was a time I didn’t believe in myself

Words ill never forget you said

Even though you lost your mind, you will always be my hero

You told me this when I was at zero

I LOVE YOU

So this is my apology, Words can live forever, mental picture , photography

NO FEAR

HIDE THESE PILLS, pretend to take it, Fake it till you make it, my mind is clear
NO FEAR!!

The real Don is over here

F.E.A.R – Fuck Everything And Run


Nah !! NEXT surprise before your eyes


F.E.A.R – Face Everything And RISE!!!!!!!!

Stories found in so many eyes

World war one, World war two, greatness is something you find only within YOU

The best I choose to bring out, my gifts I explore

I don’t know what may be in store, I don’t know what tomorrow will bring

But today I sing, a happy tune, a full moon, excited for what may be coming soon
A new day, a new dawn, another noon, another chance, oxygen an life is another trance, time to dance, dance an sing, time to be a King, follow your dreams

Believe in yourself, Believe in you, there’s nothing in this world you cannot do

Time to smile, start your own style, your own fashion, trend, no need to blend, love I send to my heavenly friend,these words are my passion
They make me happy my form of satisfaction, trying to invent a new alphabet, paying back my debt, getting rid of regret, if I have any left

Forever writing, forever fighting, I am a fire-fighter, I distinguished the fire
Darkness became brighter & brighter

Wisdom unleashed, free the deceased
Untie the leash, captured in another state, the hit debate, am I asleep or awake
Is this reality, is this a dream?
What have those eyes seen, where has that vessel been, what runs in your blood
Bloodline, bloodline, life 9, appreciation so fine


Time for that new alphabet

I choose not to regret, not to forget , PAY my debt, walk through storms and thunder, don’t care if I get wet, not afraid of what waits down under

Fighter aswel as a lover, love to my brother, love to my mother, Living my life for me an my family like no other

Thankful for what iv got, stop looking at what there is not

Remember the name, this is called the letter game, this is called insane to sane , ambition running through my vain

I will rise again and again

Haters will hate, an wish for me to fail, and as I prevail, they will fall away one by one, see I never will be done, im taking a jog, taking a run, having lots of fun, under the sun
Till I become one

Holy Spirit Son

D.O.C

I am free

I am me

So hate me

Love me

Judge me

Grudge me

Nothing will stop me

When i chose to surrender

A day ill forever remember is the day I chose to surrender

What does it mean to surrender, does it mean you’ve given up, you’ve reached the end of the line, like in battle its time, retreat, accept defeat, the end you feel you about to meet

No, this would be incorrect, allow me to define
When one chooses to surrender, it’s a feeling so fine
The sun in your life is about to shine

You surrender all of yourself, over to a greater power, like baptism, I believe its another form of a spiritual shower
All the bad gets handed over sent to hell, that smell, its your wrongs burning in the fire

Purified

We all have secrets, shame,guilt we choose to hide, maybe its hidden beneath a deadly sin known as pride, life can be a roller coaster ride, Tighten that seat belt, happiness isn’t measured through cash wealth, The guilt the shame, it can be bad for your health, Others we choose to blame, cant fathom the shame, then its time we find a better reason for them to remember our name

My name is Don, I use to choke on the bong, THE lolly made me Jolly, The CAT SCRATCHED MY FACE, big disgrace, im not white , not black, another kind of race, see im like a Oreo black an white another form of race, im from outer space, sent to change this place, then leave you all an be lost without a trace, ALIEN

Im going back to space

A heavenly space I found through grace, through surrendering my soul

My sins an wrongs started to take its toll, my guilt and shame played the biggest part in me going insane, but this was never in vain, FAITH restored helped me rise again

Have you seen a miracle, or have you only heard of such fairy tales?
Have you tried yet failed to change your ways?
Have you asked God for help for better days?

I have, I did, at first he chose not to answer my prayers
I chose to turn my back on God, he never turned his back on me, an angel told me
I blamed God, yet through moments of Insanity, and times alone, I always seemed to find Christianity

Serendipity, FINDING SOMETHING GOOD WITHOUT SEARCHING FOR IT

Now that was some HOLY shit

Truth is God saved me, God knows my story, he found me, turned my pain to Glory
Evil never was for me, more than once he sent his Angels to restore me

He sent Angels to open my eyes, and stop confiding in the demons in disguise
He opened heavens skies, told me to have faith, find faith, and once I do for me waits the greatest prize

These scary visions ,images, memories, I try describe, some I try to hide, oceans of tears I have cried
God saw the pain I kept buried inside
In the Holy Spirit I chose to confide

I said a prayer

God help me
God set me free
Help me find that place I long to be
This is not my Destiny

I cried once more

GOD please help me
These dark places inside
They killing me
God hear my prayer
God show me you there
Set me free
Please forgive me
This is my confession

These are my wrongs, these are my sins, please help me carry these great burdens
This load is heavy, Im no longer standing steady
Im about to fall, im on my last breathe

These wrongs will bring upon my death
God your all I have left

You’re the only one, please God forgive me, forgive your son

I want to make amends, I wanna know what it feels like to have real friends
I want to know love, A love gifted on earth an from above

I fear no man, with you God there’s nothing I cant , an everything I can
At this moment im no more than a silly boy, help me stand once more and become a man

God I beg help me, I surrender all of me to thee, Help me see
I choose to follow my destiny
Take this empty soul, God make it whole

I may not be worthy of forgiveness, these are my wrongs
I handover my list

Humans will sin, I look back an pretend that was my evil deadly twin
After all I am a Gemini, I was low, now I soar above the sky
God has showed me the greatest high

I look back an never ask God why

I say thank you for not letting me die, for never leaving my side
For sparing my life, for blessing me with life

Today I appreciate the finer things, like the birds that sing in the morning
Waking up alive an yawning, on this blog i am performing

I am no longer mourning, everyday I am changing, I am learning, respect an trust I am earning

Today I am in love with the most gorgeous Angel gifted to me from God above
I posses true friendships, I try walk the most righteous path, I truly smile, I can be happy I can laugh
I still fail, but I get up an never give up till I prevail
I am not perfect, but everyday I try taking a step to be better, to be great, I live by faith

To find my purpose, to do something so great, it’s never too late, so why wait, I believe in fait

Before I took so much for granted, when I chose to surrender appreciation was granted

More than three years later I can be phased by no hater

I can appreciate a relater

They say I inspire, my greatest desire
My mind God chose to re-wire

He walked into hell took me by my hand
Pulled me out the burning fire
With God by my side I just get Holy Higher

God gifted me his hand, and thanks to God I stand

He shows me my promised land


Have you seen a miracle, or have you only heard of such fairy tales?
Have you tried yet failed to change your ways?
Have you asked God for help for better days?

God help me
God set me free
Help me find that place I long to be
This is not my Destiny

Amen

Till the day we meet again

I cannot remember our first hello, but I can remember our last goodbye

Not a day goes by, not a day goes by, …

That this cold part in my heart doesn’t cry

I pray & I pray, another day, another way, ill get a chance to say, the words in this ink I cannot lay, I cannot type, I cannot write, but I tell you this we stand together , side by side forever, I stand for you, your spirit stands beside me so true

An your mother, well let me tell you this brother, she’s one of a kind, there’s no other

I know you proud, standing strong up there on your cloud

Shit it must be cloud 9, Im still hanging down here on life 9

Tell me bro, you living it up with like sexy bitches an heavens wine?

Sniffing some kind of holy line?

Bet that shit made you smile that sexy smile, that could never cramp a style

But let me be real, this life its like a wheel, it turns an turns, like Russian roulette
Come on place your bet, only one bullet left, should I go right, go right or left
This trigger could hold your death, shit, this could be my final breathe

Life flashing before my eyes, will this bullet be my next surprise, where’s the truth, can no longer stand these lies, bitches look me in the eyes, they say I give them butterflies, they just don’t know what it is that I disguise, hidden in these deadly rhymes

Iv expressed it a 1000 times, look deep beneath my eyes

A hidden Mc, but they cant see, see me, they blind, you see we are forever young the glock the gun , when we die, we found, like buried up from underground, a forgotten Son, now we dead now we done?

Sorry son, for you that would be fun, but this shit has just begun
Spirit OF ONE, FEAR none, they became one

Together they live forever, forever young they stand

WRITTEN in the palm of my hand, we stand

To lose a brother, to be so close to death, to have a heart so great die beside you, it can ignite something you never even knew lived inside of you

They say Don!!! SET yourself realistic goals, I say ill set 5 realistic, 5 impossible, an maybe the next surprise, before my eyes will be me doing what they perceive to not believe , something I know can & will achieve..
If I can escape reality, why settle for realistic an a earthly gravity?

You see I no longer live for just me, all I do, all I achieve , is for you too

Anyway I put that on your name, I can overcome pain, I can come back from going insane, when they wanted to put me in a institution, I showed them there’s another solution
My state sent them into such confusion, is this the conclusion?
Got rid of the lithium, mental pollution, shed some fat, I still got your hat, thanks for that
Bro i met this girl, she rocked my world, I wish you could meet her, she fills the void, this dark place, when I get sad I see her face, within her I truly found grace, she’s become my happiest place, one day you’ll meet her, as I believe she could be my soul mate, an I am sure you can relate when I say that souls in heaven are together forever till death does us part, heaven becomes the next start

If writing is my form of art, Im glad my loved ones an you play a part

Till the day we meet again in my heart is where ill keep you friend

Blood, love forever, rest in Peace my friend, it’s the beginning not the end

Words only you up there can comprehend, thanks for all the strength you send

Never will I forget, never will I regret, never will I let go, check this shit, about to put on a show

A quick little life freestyle for you, I remember how you use to love this shit bru

Everyone chose to judge, some held a grudge

Little did they know, the spirit of De Jager would grow

An be in the face of haters everywhere they go

LET me tell you what I know
In a special spit a sweet flow
Ye he shagged your ho, there’s a reason she’s a ho
Sorry for you bro, Ye he beat the shit out your friend
A good reason for the message he chose to send
A true blood will always stand you chose to force his hand
Respect is something you earn, the past he chose to burn
A heart like no other, don’t care what you say
His my brother!!!

Champion!!

Dear Dad

I could never thank you enough for all I have

Iv been good, iv been bad, but Iv been so blessed having you as my Dad

I look back at the life iv had, an no matter what I could always turn to my Dad

As a young boy, I may have been to young to understand
The wrath of a father’s hand, I chose to rebel your every command

Looking back now it was the wrath of my father’s hand that helped me stand

By rebelling I almost ended up buried in the sand

Something’s, some events are better left unsaid, but the dark path I chose to walk
The path of which in detail I choose never to talk

That path had a deadly end, an im so blessed to have found the love of my father before the end.

Lost on my own, you became my truest, most loyal friend

Once more I became a little boy scared and lost in the dark
Dad you gave me a spiritual spark

I know these words you’ll comprehend

Many sons grow up resenting their father, not knowing their fathers, losing their fathers to death

I’m proud to say, my father is a huge part of who I am today

My father will forever be in my heart, in my life everyday in who I may become he will always play a part

With every decision I make, its your voice that often stops me from making that crucial mistake

You have taught me how to overcome struggles, the importance of trust and truth

You have taught me how to distinguish between what’s wrong & what’s right

You’ve taught me how to stand up an fight, never give up till I find the light

You have taught me that when one door closes another opens

You have taught me the true meaning of having faith, an trusting my life in the hands of God

You taught me what is meant to be will be
Thanks to you I finally see, that God has a plan, a path destined for me

Dad thank you for always standing by your Son, Thank you for your years of sacrifice
Thanks for giving me the best most valuable wise advice
Thank you Dad for giving me life

Most of all thank you for been a father like no other

I love you, thank you

One of my most valuable possessions is a trophy I have
A rugby trophy

On this Saturday a 10 year old boy was taking part in a rugby tournament in Drakenstein

Before the final game a boy sat for 2 hours speaking to his father his father advising him on how to play, and how to be fearless

He ran onto the field with no fear in his heart

A few hours later this boy got handed a trophy

Player of the tournament

This been one of my most special memories

Anything can be accomplished when you have no fear in your heart for failure

Time to Shine

Lately I haven’t had the time to write

Iv been battling, I was in a fight

A fight with my own life, the bitch pulled out a knife

Stabbed me in the gut, stupid slut

I fell to the ground, I started to mourn

Wow, what a horrible sound, self pity

Life started to laugh at me; life was getting the better of me

And Mother Nature loved this; I thought nah man im not going down like this

I breathed deep, clenched my fist, pity party is over!!

I won’t just roll over, instead ill stand up and start over

Its 12 August 10:05, Don is writing live, Don is alive

Today I look this bitch, Mother Nature, life in the eye

Hello, high , I believe I can fly

You knocked me down, made me frown, time to turn this frown Sunnyside upside down

I won’t just stand once more, Ill fly, higher than ever before

Taking little for granted, a new seeds been planted

Time to let it grow, show the world all I know

Time to trade blow for blow

I can withstand more than you understand

I look to the palm of my hand

Life line, life 9 , time to shine

MEMORIES!!

Mesmerize, try disguise
The look beneath your eyes, fireflies and butterflies
Is what I see when I look into her eyes

Found the truth within my lies, found blue skies in her eyes
What lives in my memory, has built my destiny

Take this moment, the best rapper alive said, freeze it an own it
You think you’ve blown it?

FAILURE IS WHAT HAPPENS BEFORE YOU OWN IT!!

Memorize but never disguise!!

Channel those feelings visible through your soul through your eyes

Life is a story, you have a choice between pain and glory

Within pain one can find beauty, that’s why I am thankful it stood before me

Shit mate, this rhyme is cliché and starting to bore me
If your reading this , tell yourself there’s a reason these words are standing before me

Black and white, yep!!
We all have our troubles, we all have our struggles
We all have our fight
We have a choice to do what’s wrong and what’s right?
Just because your eyes can see, does not mean you posses the gift of sight?
Eyes tell lies too, they can hide the truth from even YOU!!

So when life’s beaten you black an blue?

What do you do?

You look into the mirror search within You!!

You tell yourself
This is what I am going to do

I’m going to overcome you
Look me in the eye, Fuck you!!

I have had it I am done!!

You think you’ve won?

I am a prodigy of the Father , The Holy Spirit and The Son


I forever Fear none!!!

I will stand an fight my fight till I Become one!!

You can lead me into temptation, but I will be delivered from the evil one!

In your darkness I find Sun!!

I find a new day, I am Forever Young!!

The devil can keep asking me to dance, ill forever say never

You see this good shit is good, an my choice is to keep it together

FEAR NONE, BECOME ONE AND YOU WILL BE FOREVER YOUNG