Forever and Always

Wow! Today I can only smile..
Iv accepted what I cannot change

I often wish that my dreams an reality I could re- arrange
I find it awfully strange

As I close my eyes at night, as I shutdown an fall asleep
I enter a world I cannot keep
I wonder if maybe you too dream of me when your asleep
Your the only dream I ever remember when I wake
Is it possible that two souls so far apart , could have the same dream?
Did u dream what I dreamt last night?
I guess this is highly unlikely
You in my dreams I cannot avoid I cannot fight
In the darkness of the night, in you I maybe find the light
Maybe I tried so hard with u, not to try fix what was broken, but to finally speak with you what I felt was unspoken
To find peace, peace of mind After you something I cannot find
I guess that peace I seek, that peace that i cannot find, even subconsciously in dreams makes my mind re wind
Maybe I felt you could give that to me
Or maybe your just forever meant to be there
I guess you truly are the angel from my nightmare

How can u no longer care, how could you so easily walk away, an never come back
Ill never understand, how the one I thought loved me most, could just forget an be gone

Sorry for the outburst, but sometimes that's what really hurts

Only you can make my dreams come true..
Yet you my dream girl living In my dream world An for that I'm thankful to 
We gave it our best, an know literally its been put to bed, put to rest, I use to fight it.. now I invite it

In the dark when im dreaming you the spark you ignite it
I have this far-fetched illusion , that one day we will sleep walk, yes sleep walk, an you will finally be there when I open my eyes

Forever waiting, forever dreaming Nothing matters when that what matters most is gone. In this life or the next, no matter how long. My heart , all my strength,all my love is with you. Forever an always .

Once upon time

Once upon a time there was a boy, once upon a time there was a girl.. They knew not of each other, little did he know this girl would one day be the greatest lover, little did she know he would never again love another. One sunny day they were introduced to each other, their eyes met, and both saw something special undercover, hidden in one another. Or was there something great between them when connected? Her heart forever he protected, till one day he was rejected.. He felt she made him a better he, but maybe he no longer made her a better she Days go by, he looks up to the sky, he asks God why? Why Lord, why did she say Goodbye? I was young and dumb, but we were too young to die. Lord in your will I have faith. You answer my prayers,prayers you feel worthy of been answered. I pray our paths cross once more. Once upon a time I gave a girl my heart, such a shame we had to part.. Problem is she still has a part. A part of my heart, an when I see her, when I think of her, my heart it finds life, it starts to beat so fast, almost as though that what is gone will be restored at last, then like she’s blinded to me, like I am a ghost she walks right past.. My heart no longer beats fast, the race is over.. My heart slowly starts to ache, I was so close, I give up, I break. Forgive me for a mistake so great... I was only a child, a child that got wild Will I forever feel this pain, will I ever again be the same, will I continue been punished again an again. I do believe in fait, destiny, an a reason for your present, an your history.. Her heart, her soul, will be my only worthy victory, her heart, her soul is all that makes me whole. Once upon a time, there was a girl, she forever changed a boys world.. Once upon a time….

Love Defined

I'm achieving so many things I believed to be impossible, I'm doing well financially , I found my place spiritually, I'm stable emotionally I'm stable mentally,I'm getting where I need to be physically.. I'm fulfilling what I believe to me my destiny.. I'm blessed with this life everyday, I'm blessed to live a good life, I'm blessed with luxuries, I'm blessed with a family that loves me, I'm blessed with friends that no longer choose to judge me.. Some nights I ask God to send someone that can love me, stand by me, love me as her man, love me as I am.. Iv got so much to be grateful for, yet if gods greatest gift is love, why do I not posses the love I seek , maybe need most, am I not ready?? .. Do I subconsciously fear something real faithful an steady.. Or does god just not feel I'm ready?? We all seek love , don't get me wrong I'm so thankful for all I have, an I should not ponder on that which I don't Maybe after this I won't I have faith that love will come when I'm ready Love that is steady When I think of love, when I think of a gift this great, a gift with a word the whole world can relate I vision the first date, an I vision it been great, I vision coming home to her, loving her most in this world, sacrificing it all for the sake of my love for her.. Putting her 1st, valuing her life more than my own.. Standing in front of her when she takes a step into the unknown,never rejecting her, never neglecting her.. Protecting her with my life, she's more than just my wife, she is my life , 2nd to God, 1st in humanity, given to me through love an christianity, the sane in insanity.. The humble ness in vanity, the truth in a lie, the tear that I cry, the hardest goodbye, an the happiest hello , or high, a kiss ill forever treasure, her been my only pleasure

One in a million

I think back, memories became like a photo album that was washed away, burnt away in flames,burnt an never to be seen on another day..
I don't know where you are, I hope that your okay
I'm sorry I just can't seem to go away, when for me to leave your life, I'm sure is something for which you pray..

My desperation, its sad, pathetic, something you've always described as infatuation
But is love not what makes us weak, is love not what makes us vulnerable, love is a action of which one cannot speak

I wish , I wish, I wish I could wash away these memories, I wish I could kill this feeling, let it go, I try, but as I start healing, I can't help shake this feeling, I wish we could start over, forget all the tears..
Never mind all the ears, put aside our fears
Take back our youngest years
An build many new years
If your not the girl I once new, an if I'm the guy you outgrew
It doesn't matter, there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for a chance again to get to know you..

You were the one in a million, you were the one in a billion
I will never be the same without you
And maybe this is a twisted obsession, an infatuation
You may be right, you may be wrong, but since the day you've been gone
There's not one day for you my heart can't help long

I long for you an you only, without you, I'm empty, my heart will always be lonely
I'm proud of you, I'm so thankful to have known you
I'm sorry, sorry that you were a victim of my infatuation, my obsession, an if in your life iv caused any state of depression, aggression, I understand if this may be your form of protection, or even just flat out rejection

My heart dies when your gone, an when I see you, it comes alive, it beats at a rapid pace, which I'm sure is at a high heart attack risk, an then you leave without a trace..
You leave me lost in space
My heart loses oxygen, my heart dies
I'm lost, I keep going north, miles of skies
You have the oxygen to my heart
You taught me so much, your heart I know ill never get a chance to touch
With you gone
I'm a car without a clutch.

Follow your dreams, your greater, your more amazing, your more beautiful, you more rare
Than you'll ever believe
Your one in a trillion billion million

Never give up on who you are
You've come so far..
Look to the sky, look high, your the north star..
An though there may be troubles on your way
If you make it through the night there's a brighter day
Hold on you'll be okay
An once more ill try again to stay away

Life is a Blessing

The pain in this world makes me crazy
He died, she died, we all died..
He cried, I cried, she lied, he lied,he tried, she tried, I failed , you failed, he rose, he bailed, he flew, he sailed..
She swam, he drowned, I smiled, you frowned..
I succeeded, she an an angel gave me the tools I needed , Him a God I found,music with another form of sound, Brendon a best friend, was lost after a friendship of greatness was found..
I see the the pain beneath ones eyes, but only some hear the cries, why say hello , when after there's so many goodbyes..
Why be born, when your death is what some will mourn.
Is this negativity, or reality?? Time to face the music.. Time to take the tools given, time to use it..
I guess I better live now , because I know I'm gonna die.. I better smile because anytime soon I can cry..
Time to let go of yesterday, Goodbye

Good morning, no more yawning..if your in my life today, I'm thankful you've chosen to stay, if your leaving soon that's okay, life is a gift time to play..
Repetition.. Fact, Fiction,never in my life again will I allow contradiction, live every moment as if its my last, 5 seconds ago is the past..
This moment ill make last..
Work on me, better me, day by day, step by step, no space for regret, iv paid my debt, brainwash me, help me forget.
I just forgot, forgot you not,just that that's meant to be forgotten.
Lifes to short....
Depression, sadness, regret..
Abort

Angels

Angels are here we have no reason to fear , the roads become dark an cold , spirits to demons are sold, spirits of angels are gold.
Through the dark we travel, do not fear what’s below the gravel.
There’s something great to unravel.
We separate the bad from the good; we walk the righteous road we should.
We do deeds only spirits of gold ever could.
Let our wrongs be written right, let our goodness one day be understood
Give our golden spirit the strength to fight, let the darkness see the light.
Let the blind find their sight, let the deaf hear only what we know is right.
May Ecanus keep inspiring me, may I fulfil my earthly destiny..
May those captured in evil be set free, with miracles by the one that separated the sea.
May Armatia give us what we need to bless the youth with spiritual truth.

Angels in heaven , deadly sins represented in seven.
Blinded by wrath and greed they know not what they need
With obsession of lust, they know not with what they thrust
Filled with pride, in evil they confide, one day they will no longer be able to run or hide.
With sloth they choose not to hear the blessings whispered in their ear
With envy they hope we stumble, in everyday victory we will remain humble.
The cookies in their mouth they crumble, gluttony will cause them to stumble.

They speak of angels here on earth, guiding an protecting us from day of birth
Angels among us here on earth, like an appointment of anointment, we become covered in a spiritual ointment.
Only a spirit so holy, can make u feel loved when your lonely..
Only a spirit followed by plenty, can make u feel full when you’re empty.
Only a spirit so strong will give back what was once gone and help you define what’s right from wrong
Only a spirit this true , would sacrifice His only Son for you.

Democracy

Spell-check, use it, don’t abuse it, spell-check, if I was your teacher id ring your neck.

Your grammar, your punctuation your pronunciation, it’s an embarrassment to the African nation.

Your words your feelings its like exaggeration , dramatisation, no wait my words my feelings my spelling , my punctuation its my very own creation, just like you do on the radio, your more than welcome to change the station if to you this is an embarrassment to your nation , my life is my form of education.

You see here its one tribe, one blood, one love one people, we are all equal.

I do not speak on behalf of the African population

I speak based on my form of education

I speak on my form of God given knowledge, God given ability; MY WORDS do damage my dignity

We all strive for freedom, so I set it free.

My words posses’ immortality, do you understand me??

I walk down the path that’s God given, I walk in the light of God.

Safety is not always guaranteed, but what is the colour of the blood you bleed?

Blue within red without, when you fear its faith you doubt..

When one has faith your path is clear, when God is near, you need not fear.

I listen to the angels that whisper in my ear, the demons are no longer here, for them I have no fear the lord of Salvation he is here.

I do not plan these words I write, something inside , something within, something that’s blue, something within you , that’s within me , wants to be set free, its wants to be red, an no longer blue, an these are the feelings I express to you.

Words that in my opinion are true.

Democracy freedom of speech, laws is not what I breach, not what I teach, these are just words I choose to preach