Love Defined

I'm achieving so many things I believed to be impossible, I'm doing well financially , I found my place spiritually, I'm stable emotionally I'm stable mentally,I'm getting where I need to be physically.. I'm fulfilling what I believe to me my destiny.. I'm blessed with this life everyday, I'm blessed to live a good life, I'm blessed with luxuries, I'm blessed with a family that loves me, I'm blessed with friends that no longer choose to judge me.. Some nights I ask God to send someone that can love me, stand by me, love me as her man, love me as I am.. Iv got so much to be grateful for, yet if gods greatest gift is love, why do I not posses the love I seek , maybe need most, am I not ready?? .. Do I subconsciously fear something real faithful an steady.. Or does god just not feel I'm ready?? We all seek love , don't get me wrong I'm so thankful for all I have, an I should not ponder on that which I don't Maybe after this I won't I have faith that love will come when I'm ready Love that is steady When I think of love, when I think of a gift this great, a gift with a word the whole world can relate I vision the first date, an I vision it been great, I vision coming home to her, loving her most in this world, sacrificing it all for the sake of my love for her.. Putting her 1st, valuing her life more than my own.. Standing in front of her when she takes a step into the unknown,never rejecting her, never neglecting her.. Protecting her with my life, she's more than just my wife, she is my life , 2nd to God, 1st in humanity, given to me through love an christianity, the sane in insanity.. The humble ness in vanity, the truth in a lie, the tear that I cry, the hardest goodbye, an the happiest hello , or high, a kiss ill forever treasure, her been my only pleasure