Purity vs Security

Just when I gave up, just when I completely let go, u decided to show
Why have you chosen to re – appear, fighting this year after year, a pain so strong that I thought would never leave never be gone
Are you my weakness??
Have you come back to heal me of this bleakness
Should I give in, or should I keep this

I have no idea what I should do
My heart, should I close or open for you
Do you posses a love that’s true?

Should I re-visit the past, fix what left me broken, an this time try make happiness last
Lost between securities and insecurity what should I choose, what might I lose?
What may I gain?
Nothings the same, I have guilt I have shame, I am the only one to blame
I have changed, was this needed for you to come back again
My mind you officially confuse, what should I choose
Purity or security?
You offer me safety and security
Yet I feel I want purity
This is all so unclear to me, does this belong here with me
Within purity I may never find security, but every minute feels like the cure for me

Why now, after years of pain, do u find me standing alone in the rain an open your arms for me again?
Once more, what for?
My heart between two it has been tore

They say Don leave the past in the past that is where it will always belong
You have moved on , right here is where you belong
But what happens when my past suddenly comes knocking on my door
And asks to come inside, and says Don lets go for a ride
We need to talk, we took a long walk
We went our separate ways, we experienced better days
But alone like two lost strays
Two lost souls, there’s a part forever alone, missing singular, sole, u posses what makes me whole
The days are starting to take its toll
A dark art, a dark part of my heart, give it back, let’s go back to the start

Iv come so far, came out the dark , shining like a star, finding purity in my soul
Purity making me hole, purity pulling me out that whole
Taking my bleakness accepting my weakness
I think I should keep this, I think I should stay
I think you should go the fuck away; purity may not be here to stay
Yet is here today, taking all my pain away, treating me the kind of way
I never felt I deserve or would ever receive, in purity I believe
Purity may not give me the security you place on the table
But in been pure, I find cure, I find happiness I never felt I deserve, never felt id find
And to choose security over purity would mean I am really blind.